It hasn't escaped me that I have been a self absorbed broken record for quite some time. Depressed, sick, and blablabla about whatever. Originally I thought I was toning it down so maybe it was OK. But I realize that is just not how it goes. And that is as it should be.
Sometimes I think if I described the way most days are constructed, it would be too much. Even some is too much.
The crux of the matter is that no one else really believes I am suddenly going to fall apart and kick the bucket. Only I think that,. and I can be way off base when it comes to some things. Knowing which things is not my strongest point of intelligence.
It seems like there are upcoming playing commitments. I do not know what I will do Christmas. There may be enough work here that I am better off not to go right now.