Saturday, July 20, 2013

Had to Delete

It became clear to me that things get beyond the humor point from time to time.   Now is one of those times.  Your biting satire and wit could easily be viewed at a glance as incendiary.

So, why knowingly do that?  I don't.  I see the problem and I take care of it.  So, you should hire me to hang out until I see a problem.  That way you'll be ahead of the game.


Monday, July 15, 2013

I May Call My New Song, "The Great Pretense"

Parts of this are really old.  The melody I have in mind is one of those kind that never really ends or has a hard resolve.  A skip to school, happy go lucky sort of thing.  The cheerful melody is a contrast but also fits the point.  But it can be talking about whatever you want.

in the distant night
a baby sleeps
a flower screams
a mother weeps
and the fog from the hills
rolls and rolls
stealing the sight
from the valley below

as innocence
alive and free
is spent like a
cheap commodity
by laughing lords
and puppeteers
trading souls
for another beer

and time and time again
my life flashed before my eyes
praying for lightning in the
thundering rain
begged for lightning
yet here I am
and the fog from the hills
rolls and rolls
stealing the sight
from the valley below

 you thought
we were lying
when we said
they were dying
see them play
in the shimmering sea
no one hears
a drowning plea

the fog in the hills 
rolls and rolls
stealing the sight 
of  the valley below

innocence
alive and free
spent like a
cheap commodity
by laughing lords
and puppeteers
trading souls
for another beer

the fog in the hills
rolls and rolls
stealing the sight
from the valley below

the fog in the hills
rolls and rolls
stealing the sight
of  the valley below


All rights reserved, of course.  No one can use these lyrics for anything except to prove I'm whatever.

If I could write something good, it would look like Heaven, or Volare, or Whiter Shade of Pale
If I had a window, it would look like that one that got shattered


If I Had a Wife, She'd Look Like Nicole

OK.  Almost have it all out of my system for now.

In other news, my colleague, Joel, has confessed that he is the one who is nuts and that I am sane, stable and always right.

Not sure if the last part is verbatim, but I'm sure that is what he meant.

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A little tip when it comes to caulking in tight places which are still visible so it has to be neat:  if you aren't careful it can become messy, tedious and troublesome.  If it involves a very small gap, cut the tip so that it has a small opening.  Ignore their little guide dents on the nozzle.  They just want lots of stuff coming out o you buy more sooner.

A damp finger is the ticket for smoothing it.  Also deft use of a sponge, and a case of paper towels help things along.

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I guess the fire is about out up on Sunrise Parkway, Mt. Laguna.  It was only 15% contained for days.  The whole fire thing, and the fact that little is done in the way of clever prevention to limit the fire's fuel and spread so it doesn't ruin people's lives, makes me think of this location as temporary.  Good thing I'm a practiced vagabond.  Most of the logical steps are illegal for one reason or another.

So, do you go back to a city that is populated by racists but doesn't catch fire except when they riot?  Probably not.  I've long viewed learning to love freezing weather as the answer to peaceful living.  Places with few rabble rousers and not much population density--in more ways than one--are usually places with harsh winters.   Good weather tends to attract riffraff.

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If I had a dog, he'd look like Old Yeller.
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What to do if They Stop Traffic

If these alleged demonstrators and protesters are attempting to stop you from getting where you need to go, I suggest you refuse to stop, and instead accelerate and, where useful, prop a door open.  That is my solution to that.

These people are lunatics and liars.  Disagreeing with some verdict way the hell over there does not translate into robbing, looting and satisfying sadistic urge and racial hatred.  At leat there is no legitimate, sane or logical connection.  The morons who do these things are thrilled that Al and every other pretender validate their greed, stupidity and sick love of inflicting pain on others.  The Reids, Obamas, and Sharptons of the country pretty much declare open season on everyone not of the correct ethnic group.  They are shameless.  It serves their devious dishonest ends.

I'd be ashamed to be as easily led as these mob people are.   Can't expect people to think for themselves if they are braindead.

I swear, if I knew of a country that wasn't suckered into insanity, I'd move.  But I know of no sane country.  The world is over-regulated and largely comprised of people incapable of being responsible with technology, and they are philosophical vacuums.  My impression is that most of the world is about as smart and moral as what Oakland Ca puts on display regularly, often in protest of something of which they know virtually nothing, like this case.

I'm going to see if maybe one of those Caribbean places is feasible.  I think the usa is screwed, done, over with.  

Ever Wonder How The Hitler Episode Could Happen?

That Nazi thing could never happen here, we thought.  Look around.  In the USA we are ripe for at least that kind of insane tyranny and manufactured conflict between factions.

Except the Germans are probably a lot smarter than most of our various groups.  Imagine, if being smart didn't provide them with better awareness, our dumb asses are in real trouble.

Charlatans, witch doctors, power hungry community organizers without conscience are seeking to use bully and thug tactics for what, I do not know.  To execute or abuse Zimmerman?  Apparently, screaming and breaking windows in cities hundreds or thousands of miles from the scene of the crime in question is supposed to be a righteous expression of honest people who don't like the concept of innocent until PROVEN guilty.

Maybe he was a nitwit.  That is not the point.  No one can demonstrate that the Martin shooting was racist, yet irresponsible "leaders" are agitating their idiot followers as if it is a clear case of white on black crime, motivated by race, and done without consequence.   No one has or can back up such claims.

Some people do not care where the herd is headed, they just want to be part of it.  I'll wager few of them have a clue what the word "proof" and the phrase "reasonable doubt" even mean.

Now, when I'm out late, as I was tonight, working, if I see a black guy at the gas station, I pay extra attention because of all the talk about shooting white people if the (hispanic) Zimmerman was found not guilty.  That is how these bastards manage to split us up by race, sex, etc.

Of course when you have the majority of a group willingly allowing themselves to be spoken for and led, it is unlikely good will come of it.

Now let's see what kind of white idiots come out of the woodwork.  The hooded ones will be stepping up the membership drive, no doubt.

I'm so fed up with people who seem too stupid to know they are stupid, or too stupid to see how it is ridiculous to be proud of being stupid.  Many people are proud of being stupid.  I guess some just have no shame, no honor or sense of values, so they wreak havoc in a quest for power, and maybe a new computer if enough businesses get vandalized so they can help themselves to things they want.

That's what unconstitutional democracy looks like.

You want justice?   Fry the black panthers who harass people at the polls, fry the people who spy on citizens without probable cause of a crime, fry the people who create tricky gun tracking schemes which result in deaths here and in other countries, but yield no other positive result, fry the people who kill citizens without due process with remotely controlled aircraft, fry the people who arm every lunatic group in the mid-east and give them tax dollars, fry the people who pretend to give news but lie and edit videos and recordings to suit their slanted agenda, fry the people who locked up Lt Behenna, Ramos and Compean,  fry the unprincipled creeps who pass laws they haven't read,  fry the people who incite riots,  fry every creep who cries racist if you disagree with him/her/it, fry the IR, fry the NSA,  fry those who have hurt our country and taken away rights beyond a shadow of a doubt.
Fry yourself if you really believe the bullshit that is being passed off as a cause.

And don't look at me like I'm some uncaring white racist.  I've been around the block and I have stood on principle where few of my guilt ridden brethren would.  I quit a job because the owner fired my black friend for little reason, and wouldn't ever promote him because of race.  In my mind you have the right, but I have the right to deprive you of the benefit of my services for being a jerk.

And I did.  If you can say the same, then judge away.  It wasn't a "look at me" grandstand play.  Few people ever knew why I quit.  That business owner knew because I told him.  Almost came to blows over it.  I guess we could have marched and had the usual bullhorn and parrots.  I hate that stuff.  We could have broken windows and vandalized his property.  Instead he lost a lot of business because his clients wanted to see my friend, and wanted to buy the product from me.

The point is, I'm not guilty, and I'm not afraid to declare the Big Pretense for what it is--a big dog and pony show---a huge lie made up of innumerable lies, half-truths, and deceptions.

My little quit the job protest was nearly 30 years ago.  I've seen far cases when the most qualified job applicants, by a huge margin, were turned down in favor of a marginal prospect based on race, and out of fear that the diversity police would label the manager a racist if he/he hired based on merit.

None of that thinking is good.

I've experienced racism and sexism on a couple of jobs from cuban women, and white.  I probably could have sued.  Not my way.  I eventually left to find a better environment.  I have also had good working relationships with women managers, so don't think women don't like me because I'm creepy.  The like me because they know I love them.

Pissing in the wind.  how can people continue to pretend and be so unbelievably stupid
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Sunday, July 14, 2013

Didn't take Al Long

Sharpton

I deleted the rest which described his antics in response to Zimmerman not being stoned to death.

I realized it was not a fun read.  Really, look at the record, and the name Sharpton is enough to tell the story.   What a sleaze bag hypocrite.

There are times when people put themselves is troublesome places, but that isn't illegal.  Of all the people who do that I'd think Al would get it.  Mayhem follows him like a dog on a leash.

Send people up the river for being stupid and we'd have more people off the streets than running free.  Memphis and a few other places would be ghost towns.

Unbelievable.

Mob rule.  Self righteous acting thugs.  Life is full of things that don't go how you want them to and there are plenty of situations which end badly. There is not always a way to legitimately punish and take out frustrations on people.

It is that way to protect everyone from taking out their hate and prejudice on those who aren't malicious criminals, but find themselves in a scrape.   To guard against sending someone up who is not deserving.
No lessons learned from all the people released on charges of rape and murder, after years inside, due to  new DNA technology?   Maybe there was reasonable doubt but those juries didn't think that was enough. Too many people are idiots.  

That doesn't stop the mob from roaming the streets looking for someone to lynch.  With Al Sharpton and Jesse pretending to be holy victims as they feed their egos leading the mob.

Saturday, July 13, 2013

The Big Pretense; part 7122013//warning foul language, and bad mood

Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain.   Wait, the man behind the curtain today is a kangaroo!   That's because we are being exposed, and over-exposed, to judicial theater.  Trial by media, public opinion, and racial hatred.   Kangaroo court hopping all across the USA.  A case which ought not be at the forefront of SoCal news, considering it is in Sanford, Florida, and does not involve skinning people alive, mass murder, or even alleged hate crimes.

It is the epitome of pretense when a hispanic man, with some black blood, is labeled white because it gives those who trade on raising ethnic anger levels something to work with.    All of a sudden, a situation that no one witnessed is used to divide up camps and draw battle lines.

Everyone knows that if racial characteristics of the parties involved were different, we wouldn't be aware of the killing.  Just like the girl who got raped, skinned, tortured in NC some time ago, and the couple in TN not so long ago.  Jesse?  No word from him.  Al?  nothing---guess there was no way to incite the murder of a shop owner or frame some crackas for a rape they did not commit.

I'm so sick of people in this country being cowardly, ignorant and afraid to tell the truth when it comes to all this tribal bullshit.

I have no idea if Zimmerman should be put away or not.  I haven't seen, and don't want to, all the info on the incident.   I'm not going to watch a trial which I do not think should be televised, involving a case which has zero to do with me, mine, or a clear cut issue.  Oh, but Obama didn't know shit about it yet he had to pander and incite anger by weighing in with that comment about how if he had a son, he'd look like Trayvon.   If I had a son, he'd probably look like me.   Or a chicken...

The President has no business mouthing off like that. It is harmful and unprofessional, and shows a disregard for due process.  That is lynch mob mentality.  What a fuckwit.

If Barack had a son, he might look like his crazy ass white mother.

I used to think maybe he was a likable yet misguided guy.  Now I think he's hardcore corrupt and self-serving.   Not sure that he's any more vile than they rest, just better at screwing up the freedom of people disinterested in anything the state has to offer in the way of unearned cash,. contracts, useless job, whatnot.

He's an arrogant sociopath.  But then he's in the right field for that, and the right town.  If it serves his purpose, he thinks nothing of fueling the fires of hatred, not caring who or what is right.  Does it promote his power?  Then he's down with that.

I don't care how many mindless short sighted devotees the guy has.  Numbers do not make something or someone right.  That's what their idea of democracy looks like--numbers and might make right.  People really are dumb, in the aggregate.

But, because the big O made it clear he is happy to choose a side in this fight,--which ought to be a trial which attempts to discover truth---every hapless liberal and democrat have spent the last several months rationalizing why this guy they don't know should be fried for a crime they did not witness.  It has become part of the huffpost talking points and every fanatic idiot who loves a Big Brother state,  and Nancy Pelosi, is all invested in this trial and making it a racial nightmare.

The racial aspect is fiction.  NBC doctored the 911 recording to make it sound racial.  And the brilliant witness said creepy ass cracka is not a racial phrase, so there we have it. Nothing else hints at racial bias.

We pretend that it is OK, and not really racist, if black people talk that way.  After all, don't all white people carry lots of guilt even though a very tiny percentage of us have ancestors who had any connection at all to slavery, other than maybe dying in the civil war.  Probably more of us have ancestors that were slaves than slave owners, considering the romans and different groups did a lot of that.  They'd nab Druids and such.  Christians for awhile.  That thought eases my guilt.

Stupid people think that the way to make it all right is to just assign the rights to abuse people based on race from one race to another.  Pretty much that is what guilty white masochists are attempting.  They are arrogant enough to believe they have that power.  They would probably deny it, but actions and The Record tell the tale.

You can't end racial tensions by saying, "hey we were not nice, so why don't you give white people a ration of abuse, one way or another, but of course I'm to be excluded because I say things like "dog whistle" to alert you to secret racist phrases like,  'I disagree with him'."

Unbelievable.  Psychopathic, and sociopathic behavior is now the norm.  Pretend long enough and that is how it goes.

On the other side, conservative pundits are lining up behind Zimmerman--once an Obama supporter (wonder if he still is).  Geez, they are doing just what the dems are doing but they aren't crying for blood. I think they are making such a deal in order to cause further strife should the morons and party animals decide to riot.   Then if someone isn't treated like a prince while rioting, they'll riot over that and Al will come down and act indignant and we can all be fucking victims.

Jesus H etc.!!!  I get it that for some reason the dems and Al are all excited because they can pull a form of extortion using all these threats about rioting, and those who never met a black person but carry 17 tons of white guilt can get some relief.  Chris Matthews will be in heaven giving insane reasons why the riots are so justified and how it is the result of all the dog whistles.    I think he believes that black people won't hurt him if he calls everyone a racist and shows clear signs of wanting to be Obama's sex slave and bitch.

The only thing worse than self appointed racial leaders like Jesse are whites who try to hijack trumped up racial outrage.  Such phonies.

It is so obviously political, and, in a country of presumed innocence, rule of law, protection of rights, this situation is wrong and dangerous.  Allowing trials to be a media circus. and allowing insane political agendas to drive it in the first place will not result in a better country.

It would be so easy to be in the wrong place at the wrong time,  and find yourself in big trouble, on the news, and on the receiving end of Al Sharpton's sociopathic propaganda.

Maybe no one in the media has ever been sucker punched, blind sided and knocked down.  I have, and I can tell you, you don't think to yourself, "Am I in real danger here?  Just what degree of defense or force is warranted?"   You pick up anything--a brick, a knife, a vile of acid, anything--and do what you can to get free.  If you can take an eye out, you do.  It is fast.

I do not know if that was the case, but I have seen nothing to prove otherwise, and don't believe they've mentioned that there was proof.  In the USA that means you cannot be sent up the river.  Well, it used to be that they at least talked a good game.  Now we just put it on tv and choose sides.

OJ gets off.  No riots.  Why didn't white people riot and decry the lopsided black on white crime situation?   If Zimmerman gets off, we all expect riots.  Explain the rationale.

It is all the big pretense.  We'll pretend the majority, or a very high percentage, of blacks do not hate whites and aren't racist.

Really must suck for those who don't live their lives seeking racial conflict and violence.  But why keep pretending?  Something is wrong when everyone knows a white guy like me would probably be dead or very much the worse for wear were I to go to almost any predominately black neighborhood.

The reverse is not even close to the same risk.  Everyone knows it, yet we pretend it is some other way, or the guilty dolts, who are the real racists, make excuses to avoid holding certain people accountable for their behavior.

I never was one who insisted that OJ was guilty.  I wasn't there, and refused to watch that trial circus.

There have been too many people harmed by these kangaroo courts designed to further some political agenda or other corruption.  All the Johnny Sutton prosecutions of border patrol and such, Lt Behenna, etc.  Those were done to please assholes in other countries; dickhead mexican officials,in Sutton's cases, and the taliban or some other insane superstitious muslim nutcases in Behenna's case as well a others.   No telling how many such cases there have been.  It only screws up the lives of a few who don't deserve it.  No big deal.

That's how we roll.  "Oh, please don't riot.  We'll ignore the law, logic and procedure just to appease you and to pretend that your punk ass posturing and threats somehow constitute a reasonable approach. And we'll apologize too.  Just tell us what for."

The hell of it is, if Martin had shot Zimmerman, with or without cause, we'd never have heard of it.  If he'd buggered him at gunpoint then dismembered him while he was still alive, we'd have heard nothing. This pretend bullshit is dangerous and wrong.  You don't have to have a real strong moral fiber to know that.  Unless you've become so good at pretending that you believe your own bullshit, and that which we keep being fed.

OK.  In case you don't know; typical dumbass democrats, you are for Zimmerman getting strung up.  Typical dumbass republicans, you are for acquittal.  All you need to know is that.  Screw the fact that you weren't there, have no dog in the fight, or other reason to be involved.  It is your duty as a mindless sheep to follow your team.  Otherwise you won't be cool.

I am so amazed that people don't see the big con being played by everyone who controls those with badges and gun, or controlling those who control.  And if they do they get pissed off at me for my rebellious attitude toward the process of totalitarianism, fascism, etc., which is what we have created here.  It is probably a type of fascim--corporate-government partnership.  Never ever buy the benign lies and smile if they are accompanied by talk of business and government partnering.  It is bullshit.

I'll explain why another time.  If you can't see it, I suppose talking to you is a waste of time anyway.  F-off, comrade


Not much is real

It is demonstrably composed mostly of pretense


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Monday, July 8, 2013

Even a Stopped Clock is Right Twice a Day

Among the handful of people who did or said the right thing at the right time, and helped stave off either my demise or entry into another dimension--possibly a delusional one--Joel holds a unique spot because he continues to harass me and convince me I'm nuts.

And he's helped me in several scrapes, the nature of which vary greatly.  Not always obvious when I'm in a scrape.  Don't think it is not used as ammo from time to time.   Then again, maybe it useful to be reminded of how the road's been traveled.  There is progress, but that is after lots of opposite of progress.

The advantage here is that there are times when he is right, because I am sometimes nuts.  It always makes me think.  He may not use the word "nuts', but it boils down to the same thing.

Recently we had a conversation and he expressed a little skepticism regarding why I would be down.  There is no good reason.  That actually helps because even though I can't see it now, I know I could see that there are no compelling reasons for my lowest points during our conversation.  So, I know myself well enough to know that I am not viewing reality with a constructive attitude.   I'm wondering if it isn't an inner sense of place that is the problem.

I'm not so sure the place is of a geographical nature.

Where I work can be interesting.  Take the Hollywood actress; mostly B movie parts and rap-booty videos.  She's good looking, and apparently clueless.  She's really a concubine of sorts but thinks she's the number one girl of the faithful guy who owns the place.  He lets her and her entourage stay there on his dime when they want.  He's elsewhere.  Last week he was there with someone else.  She was elsewhere.

Booty lady's entourage consists of her mother and a few friends, and maybe somebody's kids.  Among the friends we have an allegedly homeless man who is some sort of in-law.  She says she brings him and the occasionally one of his colleagues because "they'd never get to know this kind of luxury", and it's her "way of giving back".

She has the house manager buy car loads of groceries and booze, all on the "john's" dime.  She and her mother then load up all that's left over---which is most of it---and cart it back to L.A.  She is paying for nothing, yet she uses that obnoxious phrase, "giving back", as if she's a saint.  Give back to what?  Uncle Waldo because you robbed him as child?

I guess he's a help when they load up coolers full of food and beer for the ride home.  I think they schedule visits when groceries run out.  They give back to their pantries and refrigerators.

And it is most charitable of them to give Uncle Waldo a lift.  Who knows, they may make him pitch in for gas.

That group leaves the place like a tornado hit.  Always expect the most unlikely things to get broken.  This time they broke the ping pong table, and some piece of a shower head set-up.  In these cases, as in most, the breaks are of a nature that leave how it broke a tricky mystery.  I can usually fix whatever it is, but I cannot always solve the mystery of how or why it was broken.

The table is a very solid attempt at making a fold-up ping pong table durable and idiot proof.  This residence is where I would test any new design to see if it can survive energetic morons.  Finally, the morons beat the table.  I will say it withstood some really stellar dimwits until now.  I can probably make it whole again.  Don't think I can make it Booty-actress proof.

The political person with whom these people rub shoulders very likely thinks spending the money of others is his way of giving back, too.  No wonder I'm down.  What seems fine to most people doesn't sit well with me.  But being Don Quixote is not the route I hope to take.  I didn't like him or his putsy friend.  Right as they may have been--about who knows what.

So, when is one exercising courage, doing the right thing, and when does one cross the line into tilting at windmills?   If the Revolution had been lost, would Washington and Jefferson and the like been seen as wild idealists without sight of reality?  I like them better than Quixote and Toto, or whatever his odd friend was called.

It is interesting that reality of the way things are, and what is right often collide.  At times those who stand on what is right are considered brave and courageous, and at times they are thought to be lunatics.  In both scenarios hindsight often, but certainly not always, renders the initial judgement wrong.

See? It gives you nothing solid to go on.  The whole deal is a self-doubt factory for those who care what is right, and about the well-being of people in general.  And who often find society a confusing place.
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Mt Laguna's on fire.  It is not that far and I go there all the time.  This is not good.

Saturday, July 6, 2013

Phoning it In

So, a guy I haven't seen in about a year called me to ask if I'd play a block party in Poway.  That was today--Sat 7-6.  Or 6-7 if you are foreign.

He's a good guitar player/singer, and has a mandolin player that is a cut above the norm for mandolin player I've seen around.  But they play the kind of songs which do not have the most predictable of patterns, and I guess they draw only from the list of tunes I've never played.  Many of them I've never heard.

This was a good size neighborhood block party.  We were the first group, then they had another, more plugged in band.  I waited around a bit to see if maybe it would be a sit-in opportunity but decided it wasn't.

We played an hour and a half, and never once played anything that I knew or anything real loose.  It was a challenge but I think I filled some space, keeping the sense of what was going on.  The mandolin guy is a good person to play with.  That communication is there, and he's a versatile player.

I guess it went OK.  I hit the end of the regular saturday open mic/jam, which was at a new venue.  It was OK.  Mostly I just tried to go somewhere I wasn't.  Never works but it helps, maybe.

The most exciting thing was that I wasn't expecting to play because I was way late and not on the list.  They put me on anyway and when they were telling me to come up I didn't realize the case was unlatched. Twenty two harmonicas all over the floor.  I do have two C harps in the case, so there are actually only twenty one unique harps.  Several minor key tunings.

That was the excitement even though I think I did well in Poway.  Probably I am a little less enthused playing thing I would not choose for me if I could be doing whatever music I like best.  And I'm not sure what it is I'm after.

Maybe I'll cross paths with a drummer I met who seems conversant with world and caribbean influences.  I like a lot of that foreign stuff, even if some of them foreigners don't speak English.  I had a discussion with that guy and something could come of it.  In the world of musicians I encounter, though, it never pays to assume the outcome of anything, regardless what is said.

Musicians who don't have to wear a tux to play are generally unreliable, moody, and subject to odd behavior.  That is most likely why some people think I'm a musician---I have all the character trappings, even if my musical ability has fairly severe limits.  And I'm the guy who never attempts to put on "the look", and frankly am put off by those who do.   They look like musicians and I am squirrelly like one.

Then there are actual real deal musicians and I can't say more about that.

Sunday, June 30, 2013

Another Idea

If we take the word "lonely" out of the dictionary, then there is no way I can be that.  A lone wolf howlin at the moon.  A romantic notion which is no fun at all.  Highly over rated.

I guess it beats being shacked up with a power hungry psychopath, or pathological liar, or whatsername. Or someone who likes what she thinks I ought to be, or could be, but not so much who I am.

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