I have Proof of Genius out of D.C.

There is a remote chance you do not know my name, or else you forgot it.  So I try to take meaaures to maintain the status quo in that regard.  It seems safer.

But you have to be sharp to recognize my amazing professionalism and unique abilities,.  So, needless to say, I can vouch for the White House whatever it says office because they have the integrity to give me a certificate of swell-o.  No dimwit would do that. 

They seriously are very sharp people.  This country produces some remarkable people.  Like this genius group.  They just stuck the ones with no personality off by themselves and the personable ones do all the dealing with outsiders.  Highly impressive people. And all of them young. A few may be into their thirties. The older ones looked more worried. The younger ones just looked happy and highly competent.  Incompetents would have never have noticed my superb attitude.

Chapter 1052015

Just putting up posts like someone with an audience and something to say!

Well, who knows...

Not knowing if it was because of inner alarms of undefined trigger, or general anxiety about all the dead end depression, or because it just wasn't working, I canceled playing at hardrock with G and Richard Resonator.  I always like playing with Richard so I gave the trio idea for this a shot. We ran through stuff yesterday, at the ranch, and it became clear that G, who has real difficulty with the patterns of things like consistent timing structure; ex, 4/4 time and you do this for four measures, etc.  Measures will lengthen a beat or two, etc. under G's guidance.  It can be a mess.

Anyway, since they had played this stuff several times lately, G seemed more comfortable just the two of them.  That is how it seemed to me.  Richard and I wanted to play but found it hard to interact while trying to react with light speed to his unpredictable style.  Plus I was not enjoying the music.  So, it was no fun, and on the one song I did feel a little comfortable, G said I was throwing him off and wanted me to sit out.

I'd rather just play that song and go home.  Most of the others are just not me.

I gave it overnight in case I was being impulsive, then I told them it would go better without me that I felt uncomfortable with the material and wouldn't do it publicly feeling that way.

Then I hear that after the gig, G tells Richard I bailed on the gig because I don't like playing with Richard.  That is so wrong.  First, you don't disregard someone's feelings with info that is not yours to share, true or not.  But in this case it is completely false.  Opposite of true.

I have sung the praises of R.R. to everyone.  Especially after the recording studio experience for the Marine.  Richard's dobro set the feel of that whole project.  It was fantastic, and I told everyone I played with during that period how good it was etc.  So, for someone to do that is a little over the top.

Why he could not accept that I felt it wasn't working and that it was better just tow of them, I do not know.  I guess he'd have to conclude that the nature of him makes it hard for two people to back him.

This is the junior high kind of nonsense you get when you try to play music with people.   It does not get better with age, overall.  It gets worse.

It is too bad there wasn't something solid enough that we could play because we each have odd styles and play off one another real well.  It works.

It was good he called to clear the air.  He'd heard I had said good things so G's idea that I wanted to avoid him sounded off to him.  But he's like me, hanging by a thread, and doesn't need to be kicked in the gut.  In his case, I get why.  In mine, I have no idea.  But here I am, and it is getting freaky lately.  So, little things like being able to mean something on a call like that help. That is why you better keep the people around that you have.  You may not know just how great you have it until you have become the last one standing in your barren little world.

I know.  Maybe I don't know how great I have it in my barren little world, compared to where I'll be if I don't find  way to see the good and the hope and function as if I care.  It is paradoxical but I think I have to do for others in some way in order to get a handle on, or motivation to tackle, my own mess.

The Difference, so far

In the overly dramatic recounting of the Katrina New Orleans saga, all you heard was blame and helplessness, and people shooting at rescue choppers, and looting.  Many of the stories about racist nursing home owners and heartless ones proved 100% false and the people maligned were actually very compassionate and had risked everything to help people.

Never let fact in the way.  It wasn't a Katrina issue, it was "you live below sea level and the dutch boy is pulling his finger from the dyke at any minute" issue.   You need to be sure the levees are in order and that redundant systems are in place.  Otherwise, all it takes is one little thing and it is all history.

No.  It was Bush's fault because he hates black people.  According to people like Spike Jones, and many others who weighed in with creative fiction at the time,  white people are obsessed with race and think about it all the time.  So, they made a weather event to kill black people.  They made them shoot at helicopters and Bush is an obsessed racist.

Come on.  New Orleans, at least that district they always talk about was populated with morons. Their state and city were governed by morons and opportunists.  No surprise; most places are.

Anyway.  In Columbia you hear about people finding creative ways to help one another.  Maybe soon they will blame someone and start massively stealing and looting.  But so far, they do not react like they did in Louisiana.  Maybe the governor and general population are a little more removed from the idea that government is a parental sort of god which can do anything on a whim.  I prayed to the government to come get me and they didn't so I drowned.

It would be such torture to many people with various ailments and limitations to deal with that sort of flooding and lack.  Shortage of everything in such times.  All is wet, rainy, under water.  What if you are in a wheel chair or just sick?  Rough times.  I still blame Bush.  And Lyndon Johnson.

The Same Common Sense Folks...

...who gave us common sense no-knock SWAT raids, often killing innocent or ill people, getting the wrong address, maiming babies with flash bang grenades, etc., are the same ones we expect to successfully deal with common sense gun control?  These lunatics are the ones who are to decide who is a threat?  That is the trouble.

Sooner than later, whoever philosophically disagrees with those in power will be labeled as mentally ill, and domestic terrorists.  Already those who think man can control the cycles of climate suggest jailing those who publicly claim otherwise.

That is why I am skeptical when I here demagoguery like Obama's half truth riddled speech, and others clamoring for more laws.  All the facts have yet to surface. We do know that unprotected, and disarmed places have more butchery by madmen.  When governments do it, it is OK.  When lone lunatics ruin the lives of others it is a call for more power to be given to government.  I am not of that school.

But I am not of any school, today.  Except I am not of the school who uses the word "folks" very much.  I did here to mimic the president in his folksy overuse of the word.

Band Wagons and Whatnot

Everyone is hopping on half baked crusades regarding guns.  It is a macabre thing that generates these reactions.  But the reactions are invariably full of half truths and emotional outburst more than anything useful.  All the usual "we need to...".  I rarely find myself comfortable in those "we" statements.

For one thing, I wasn't involved in the events which bring on all the madness.  And I certainly wasn't involved in making the laws regulating the people and places involved.  So maybe "you" need to seek common sense or rethink the restrictions and such. I don't.  And I don't often come down on the side of regulation if it is at all avoidable.  Simply because I do not have much faith in those who enforce laws, or create them, when it comes to reason and honor.

Enforcement culture is as far from a "common sense approach"  as it gets.  In about every area.  Or it can be.  Depends upon who is wearing the official gun at the time.

We can expect a rash of feel good, depending upon your predetermined viewpoint, slogans pasted over famous people's likenesses, even though they most likely never said what is being tacitly credited to them.  I saw one with Morgan Freeman and it said something comparing two unrelated events to demonstrate the duplicitous nature of how people view things in this country vs others.

I do not think Morgan had anything to do with that bit of propaganda.  No matter.  When it was pointed out that some woman's over the top essay encouraging "us" to "DO SOMETHING!!!" contained several false statements, wrong figures, blatant lies,  one supporter tried to equate the false statements with misplaced commas and such.  Admitting the lies but then saying it was being picky to be skeptical of the conclusion merely because the facts used to support it were false.

You can't reason in that environment.  I offer no answers or anything.  I will say that propaganda can be annoying.  They all use the term "common sense" in pushing gun laws.  That is lame.  99.9% of the people using that phrase only use it because that is what all their talking points say.

And it goes on.  There are stats regarding Honduras vs the US based on false premise.  Like so many things, sense of any kind seems lost.  I see places where fires have jumped highways and it would not hurt much to broaden the firebreak a bit to hamper the next one without totally ruining things.  No. Lets just let the dry weeds run up to the edge of the rd and hope the slightest spark doesn't touch it because that is all it will take.  We will worry most of the year, every year, because we can't do anything man made to protect mankind because we are bad and not natural.

Hell with it.  Just trying to write something other than health news or articulated fear and mental paralysis.

Nothing to do With Me

Guns and demagogues and how to prevent bad things and how to exploit bad things have little to do with my immediate life.

I think it useful to not indulge what is consuming me emotionally.

I should be thrilled that the newly found chiropractor in Alpine is a Palmer grad, and that he has drastically reduced the pain that had been a nuisance for a month or so.   I think it has been going on for even longer and I just forget time frames.

Sacroiliac sounds like a made up part.  Just a word to further a scam.  Apparently not.  I have found myself experiencing problematic pains a few times in my life.  It is the type of thing that only a good chiropractor has been able to relieve.   That was my main worry when I left Miami, along with the fact I'd found a decent hair cutter.  

As rare as it is when I have back or neck issues which fall under chiropractic purview, it is nice to know one is near.  I remember barely being able to get in the car a drive to his office.  My brother's brother in law.  And his father before him.  Those two worked magic.  People who knew the dad and know the son's work will attest to it.   The Alpine guy is good but he's not them.  Still, the job will get done.

When asked how to select a chiropractor in distant cities, my Miami in law relative said just check fro Palmer grads.  Finally after a decade or so, I did just that.  The only time I have been to anyone but a member of that remarkable family in Miami.  Oh wait.  I did talk a guy in Inverness into doing something to relieve back pain when I had to pick up a car there and drive it down on Christmas eve. Then I got real help.

This is the only chiropractor in Alpine, as far as I know.  He is not hurting for business, that is for sure.  And he doesn't charge as much as the Inverness, FL chiropractors did in 2004.   I went from one to the other there to find one that would just give some adjustment and not demand X-Rays and a bunch of stuff that would require coming back next week, etc.  Finally that one guy understood and helped.  He also talked to my Miami friend on the phone which helped.

I think it must be the Palmer way to minimize bureaucracy and actually do you some good. 

It must be a nice life when you benefit people on a regular basis.  I honestly do not do much good any more.  Not often anyway.  And, as is probably common, when I think I will change and fix this mess I feel too exhausted.  I bet that is just another big lie my mind is working with.  Damn it.  If I had stayed married and done all that would have entailed, things would be so much different and so much more sane.  So tire of looking in the mirror only to see a total idiot and fool looking back.  

But, I only look in the mirror when absolutely necessary and only to ensure I don't go out with stuff hanging out of my nose and such.  You can go for specifics without really looking at the person in the reflection. I'm expert.  

Not Obligated to Seek Some Sort of Meaningless Solution

This is same subject matter as last one but will be shorter and more to some point or other.

Seriously, how can the same people who claim movie violence and video games have no influence on violent behavior suggest that a shooting in a place where all guns are banned would have been prevented by more laws and tighter gun control?  

The solution is always to emasculate society--not to raise feminist ire here.  It is an expression that means to render powerless.  Until recently we saw power in terms of masculine virility and such. Not my idea. Just the messenger.

Anyway, by the present logic they will eventually find it best to cut off our arms and legs except for those who get permission from on high to possess these deadly limbs.

The trend for way too long has been to look at every insane act or even just accidents as something that justifies reducing people to begging victims, hoping the big grand power of government will save them from the imminent rape, murder, beating, etc.  To "take the law into their own hands" would just be wrong.  Leave it to the professionals; the ones who can legally carry a gun and legally shoot you for almost any reason.

Well, that last is a stretch, but not much of one in reality.  I just don't want to fuel the new victim twist of thought which has thugs and other idiots deciding that it is OK to shoot police because Al Eric, and Barack have more or less claimed you are justified.  Even though "hands up, don't shoot" never ever even almost happened.  Total fiction.  Just how it is.

So, they play up the mass murders in a way that attracts people to do it.  And they, of course, deny any influence.  But that is clearly wrong.  How do you think drugs spread so quickly?  News and schools hammered us about it when very few kids even knew what pot or any of that was.  The cops who came to talk, and the administrators and teachers involved were already so highly annoying to many people that their credibility was nil.

If they said it was so bad, and we hadn't seriously considered it up until then, maybe it was worth trying.  Those people were dedicated statists who were full of lies and were highly unjust.  So they sold a lot of people on the efficacy of drugs and alcohol.  

Had there been less sensationalism and less hysterical legal reaction, I doubt things would have gone as they have.  The first I heard of crack cocaine was in a news article which described how to make it.  Brilliant.  It was a guy who did and sold coke who showed me the article.  Up until then, he didn't know how it was made or much anything about it.

So first they promote by guaranteeing murderers that they will be famous and that millions will be frightened or otherwise affected by them.  Then they create the image of the dark mind, the loner persona, a disturbed person whose past can "give us insight into the killer's mind".

Who doesn't want to be so important that who shows are devoted to your inner mind and what makes you tick.?  Annoying cliche--"what makes him tick?'.  Ask clock boy--another bandwagon bunch of garbage that Obama embraced much too quickly.  Did he inspect the hoax clock to know it wasn't purposely designed to cause panic?  Like all sensational stories and cases in distant cities, he knee jerked his way into taking a side without knowing anything accept it served to help him manipulate opinion.

What a jerk.  Really.  And now to make it like the only people who care about murder are those who seek "common sense gun control", which is absolutely meaningless.  Remove guns from all government people based on my view of their suitability to possess a firearm.  I trust my judgement more than theirs.  I absolutely do not trust their motives whereas I do my own.  And that is why I oppose the idea that more laws will save the day.

We disarm our own military on military bases.  I'm sorry. WTF?  How does that make sense?  We don't disarm the body guards of the monied elite or of government officials.  But the rest of us can only hope that attention seeking lunatics will follow the law.  Really.

I have rarely seen a president disgust me more in reacting to an act of terrorism and sadistic cowardice.

Recent Events Prove that you needn't be smart to be rich, or be president

I was falling asleep while writing this, dozing off.  I am not sure a lot of it even makes sense.  I will leave it as a curiosity.

Not saying the president isn't smart.  Everyone says he's "off the charts", but actual numbers are sealed.  Where I work, the lack of correlation between money, power and intelligence is demonstrated regularly.

c The brilliance of "common sense" controls on the right to self defense, which is the underlying point of second amendment, is pretty much rooted outside reality, and inside the power elite.   If more laws against guns and how they are bought would prevent lunatics from finding ways to get them, or deter them because they don't want to violate a regulation, then why not just outlaw murder?

Oh wait a minute.  It is already illegal to have firearms on that campus of the latest man made disaster.  Workplace violence will perhaps be the label.  Even security could not have weapons on campus.  So, it was already a zone of extreme gun control and regulation.  Possibly to the detriment of innocent victims.

I am pretty sure murder is illegal, even if there is no way to further the cause of diversity or solidarinosc of some kind.

The truth is that promoting it in the press will not help, and that is exactly what has been happening.  If I want to express my anti-social homicidal maniac side, all this glamour and attention is hard to resist.  And it is easy to do in gun-free zones, especially schools.  Why?  Because they are run by nitwits, possibly highly intelligent, but nitwits when it really comes down to it.  And it is like shooting fish in a barrel.

So if we just forbid people from owning guns, except government people and those who can afford to find a way to buy in, no one will get shot.  None of this would happen if only common sense laws pertaining to home basketball had been enacted.  The dummies who oppose a totalitarian state, which grants rights as privileges which citizens must earn,  obviously don't care, and probably pay mass shooters to do mass murder.

I'm sure some stern signage indicating that the campus is a no-kill zone, and that there is plenty of money to be had, if where it goes  disaooeared

I Must Be Easy

So, I get a call.  "Hey soandso asked us to play at such and such and x% of the door, and open for soandso2. "

And I think, well I have no commitment that I recall.  Lately it is foolish not to see if I have something listed on one calendar or another.  That is a prob.  More than one calendar and rarely keep them all up to date on any given topic.

My consistency is in my inconsistency.  And therein lies the genius of the thing.

Of course, I quickly agree to play as if I know what I'm in for.  We did a set at TinRoof for some reason and I guess the people liked it.  It was a nice place.  And for about 30 minutes, nothing existed beyond just playing.  No thinking, no worry, just suspended in that place.  It is why I do these things. If I let myself get started before I think what a fool I am and how stupid, etc., time just disappears.

Then all of a sudden, that is it. No more.  It feels like two minutes have passed, but it also could be two hours.   Very rarely when I play out does the set feel as long as it is.  A two hour show often feels like thirty minutes or an hour.

You won't believe Day of the Dead.  I think I play six hours on one of the days.  I play four on Halloween.  That is the best gig I have done so far. It pays the best and is most diverse demographic. It has come to the point where I hate to use the word diverse because it has become a stupid, almost cartoonish battle cry for those seeking victimhood and trying to legitimize hostility toward people who are just minding their own business.  But they aren't doing it with the right race, gender, lack of gender, sexual preference, non preference, compulsion, etc.

And that has nothing at all to do with diversity. Diversity is not a virtue in most cases. It is just a situational think. We have a diverse array of paint colors. A diverse selection of nitwit trading cards, featuring a diverse cast of characters drawn from Hollywood and Washington DC.  And all parts of California.

Companies have long had VPs of diversity,.  They may make the title bigger by adding another buzzword. Diversity and sustainability. Diversity and equality.  Diversity and human relations.

I forget the specific example from a past employer.  That VP was a viper.  Female, sexist, racist underhanded creep.  Sexist to the point of clear and open dishonesty and corruption.

Many people in the business world think that is what you have to do.  They think that is free enterprise capitalism.  It is not.  It is lack of character.  Dress it up however you wish.  You know you have worked around people who would probably OK a hit on someone if they thought it would ensure their job security at 25k per year, or even less.

That is the thing.  We have hundred-aires selling out every bit as much as, or more than, millionaires. You'd think the hundred aire would be less likely to let someone die if it meant he could keep his hundreds.  I would assert that he is as likely as the millionaire to throw his fellow man under the bus. Literally.

Observations like that cause me to be reluctant throwing myself into solidinosc with every mob or demonstration.  I don't care what they support.  Besides they probably think it is OK to violate rights of others to make their point.

Oh, I was talking about playing and how I just agree in an uninformed way.  It is embarrassing to admit that most of my decisions are rather uninformed.  I think I have a phobia to informing myself about my life and options for sustaining it.  Makes no sense but that is how it has been forever I think.

I miss being married, even though that was lifetimes ago.  I really should have stuck with it and accepted the help available to me.  On the other hand, maybe she is better off.  One part of me hopes so.  Another hopes not.

Never Trust Aspiring Actresses

That is my take.  The aspiring actress/ex-concubine of my employer was very nice and sweet in person.  They trashed many aspects of the place.

Damaged the super telescope that has an electronic controller, kind of like a remote.  Left a large pan, with at least two quarts of oil in it, outside on the grill in a very nice AllClad pot, covered by the stainless rectangular cover which covers two separate side burners of the grill complex.

Managed to drip fish and crab juice all over the refrigerator, leaving serious fish smell.

Separated at least half the louvers on a wood louvered window covering from the vertical piece that opens and closes them.

Somehow removed about a four by six inch area of the finish off on one table.  Ruined a couple of towels and a robe.

There will be more.  I spent much of today trying to rescue the fridge.   Such is my life.  The good part is that it is indoors, and indoors has a/c and that helps ward off the demons.

I think she had to assert her high maintenance actress creds.  A little revenge maybe since the boss cut her off from having all the groceries and booze she wanted to order, brought in and paid for by him.  She was spending close to $2000.00 sometimes for 3 people for 3 days.  Just food and alcohol.  Then she'd load up the left over into coolers and go home to L.A. at the end of trashing the place.

Sometimes she trashes it worse than others.  Never gives accurate figure on number of people coming. Often lies and says just her and her mother, then she has ten people staying there.

But, she can be charming and she was nice when I went to eradicate invisible ants by the bar b q grill.

I cannot figure out what is what with her or her mother or their friends.  It is uncanny how they can make problems.

So, let's just take her off the list right now.  Without a sizable dowry, I refuse to marry her.  And that's that.