Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Not Even Going To Say Anything...much

Instead of staying home, watching the big political fight, I listened on radio on the way to go to a possible playing opportunity.  Sort of open mic/jam.  Sande was there.

Not many people showed.  Someone didn't show so we became the feature, Sande and I.   I went there hoping to play.  The guy before us asked me to play on a couple.  I figure this cast situation has me at about 65% to 70% of my two-handed, harp player self.

Which reminds me, it is "SET foot", not "STEP foot".  Dan Rather screwed it up.  I blame him for the proliferation of the wrong wording.  I will not SET foot in this town again.

So I managed to play.  I need to practice so I can figure out what I am working with.   The cast thumb is where all my soul and muscle memory resides; the map to sound and nuance.

I have only one near term gig.  The usual suspects all out of town for a bit.  I play a private party with a guy I know.  I played with him before.  Mostly, if not all, covers.   He is good, but it is a type of stuff I rarely play, so it is a challenge.  With this cast it is bigger challenge than I would have expected. Probably easier to just wear one of those harmonica  racks, like Dylan.

The hand is a huge part of the sound these days.  Maybe I should go back to holding the mic and harp together when I play.  I'd rather not, though.  Tonight,  I could tell it sounded uninspired.  No one froze in their tracks and turned to see who or what was playing.  It was ok, just lacking the zip and surprise people are coming to expect.

I came home and found the debate on youtube.  I skipped some stuff, but caught most of it.  I like it best when it is low key.  There were a few moments like that.  I honestly thought I would cringe more.  I cringe at snarky smiles and smirks, and bickering.  I had the bar set low, in my mind.  So the debate was actually less obnoxious and painful than I expected.  I won't comment about which one seems scariest and most likely to smother a crying baby with a pillow.

Saturday, September 24, 2016

You Really Bash Yourself

in your inner dialog when you are alone, and right hand and forearm are in a cast.  and you are me.  You call yourself names that should not be said to anyone.  Or not many, any way.

you think what an idiot it takes to maneuver one's life into such a corner.  Then you realize you have never been good at discerning friend from foe, real from fiction in many contexts.  People will often betray trust if it comes down to some perceived advantage.  Among the very young, they often do it for fun.

But when you don't know, you often shortchange the wrong people and it is too bad.

I have the possibility of becoming very healthy.  Some real living and maybe head issues to resolve, but no legit  excuse why that cannot be done as well as the work I need to do.

My blood levels are now normal.  Still taking the pill, but don't be surprised if that is even cut back.   My secret plan may be working.  Could all be coincidence.  I try to vary things to tell but it is hard to be,positive which cause is absolutely tied to which effect.   Pretty sure I have influenced things.

So learning to live left hand dominant causes me to pay more attention and force myself to be more patient.  One trick is to relax my right arm while attempting something difficult left handed.   My right hand will be tensing and dreaming about doing the task.  It tenses and messes things up.  If I relax, then I can patiently focus and accomplish the task.

My necessity is to be able to go on with blinders on at any instant.   I can glimpse the truth of my existence but I need blinders to ignore it, which is all I can take doing.

Well, Enter the Blue Sky recording should be out soon.  CD and itunes, and wherever.  It is called re-entry.   I think it is over an hour long.   13 tunes. a few are over 5 min i think.  we like long songs.  I do.   There is some good instrumental with viola, stand up, and harp sounding different than you may expect.

I am being told end of october it will be done.  Mostly Sande's project; her material, vocal, and ultimate responsibility.   The viola player is well off and has underwritten much of this.

I believe this could do well or fall flat.  I'm to close to it to say.  I am very happy with what the viola and i did with the solid foundation of bass and guitar.  Ho do i know if anyone else will like it?
It is rather unique.  You never know in such cases.  There are people who consider that twit, Kanye, and artist.

mass hypnosis is easy if you have the stomach for it

hypnosis may be the wrong word.  I am mostly typing left handed and shift cap is a pain.  Thank you for your understanding.

propaganda is very powerful.  Broadcast the same misinformation over and over.  People soon believe it.  Throw in ridicule, bullying and shaming those who question your odd agenda and resistance subsides.   Human nature.  

but what we see happening is highly dangerous to regular Americans who do not hate themselves or everyone else.  In cities like memphis, encouraging open season on white people is really inconsiderate.  It never should be open season on anyone.  Getting pleasure from harming others is sick and aberrant. period. dot.

The self hating whites who aren't wealthy enough to escape consequences of misguided and destructive policies seem to think if they cry out the loudest for the blood of the other white devils, maybe they'll be accepted by the "of color" people and they won't get robbed raped shot or just beat up.    I think when people see through them, or the bloodlust fever pitch of the mob mentality is at a peak, they may be at more risk than they know.

When you are condescending and assume you have to save people who can save themselves, they sense the phony reality, and the underlying lack of respect.  If I were black, I'd resent like crazy people like Michael Moore trying to convince me of my victimhood then profit from it and act like he's down with the folk; one of us.  No. He makes money from stirring the pot with false or half true info.  An absolute master of deceptive editing.

When you bus in paid thugs, call it peaceful protesting, destroy lives, property, anything remotely connected to the truth, and act like this represents a whole race of people is brazen to say the least.  But it works.  It has to be devastating to the sane people in those neighborhoods.  They are actually ensuring that inner cities remain Black, crime ridden, gang controlled communities.  They make sure education is difficult, and getting out and up is not easily worked out.

The people funding this and encouraging it are the true racists.  But it is not race.  It is just that they want a small ruling class and a mass of pliable mush for citizenry.  it is working

Thank You, St. Pat; patron saint of ambiguity

This cast is designed to discourage any use of the thumb, but fingers can function.  Just nothing over a pound of weight or pressure.  I'm mostly right handed.  

It is undoubtedly my appeals to St Pat.  Not Paddy, Patty, or Patrick.   Ambidexterity has been miraculous given to me while negotiating a breakfast burrito at El Mariachi.   It  was to the stage that a fork was needed.  A tricky cut and stab maneuver.  Pulled it off.  I thanked Leftie for stepping up to the plate.  Writing left handed is still a bit weak.  But hand writing is rarely required in this century. Had to sign one of those little CC receipts.  Pretty much just made an X.

This could have been harder so far.  Maybe because I can feel it and do not want to disturb the bone that needs healing.   If it does well then maybe no cast after 3 weeks. Or maybe they just check, let it breathe, then re-cast it for another 3.  

Maybe I do more when something limits me.  Out of anger at being controlled probably.  Or fear of not being able to change anything.

Friday, September 23, 2016

When First You Practice To Deceive

...you don't perceive the web you weave.    This fake oppression, relatively speaking, and its manufactured reactions will come back haunt the fools who keep these lies alive.   Many of them confused, guilty whites who think the world was safe and peaceful until their european ancestors learned how to drive boats.    I'm sorry, but most of the world was, and still is, as stupid and brutal as your cracker forebears.

Hopeless.  White misanthropes who particularly hate those of their own race and ethnicity do everything they can to fan the flames, pretending it is compassion.  I call it disrespect.  They think minorities are easy to manipulate.  And things have been set up so that they are easy.

However, it is beginning to be more difficult to just assume you can herd them like cattle with no effort.   News stations have become so transparently dishonest, biased, and manipulative that it astounds me that people believe it.  But, there is always some payoff, and it doesn't take much.  Victim card!  Yea, Buddy!

So in Charlotte, like most events of this nature, paid thugs and "community activists" are shaping the story, the propaganda, and creating the violence.  They would love to goad the cops into shooting, but I think they prefer locals carry the front lines in that situation.

It is a fabricated outrage.   Cops tend to shoot lots of different kinds of people.  In Baltimore Black cops are more likely to fire their weapon.  I think distinctions are stupid but if you play it on one side, you need to be consistent.  All the facts.  I do not think it is racial.  Not these days.

What we have is social manipulation.  Politics.  The result always being less personal freedom and some pretense of being safer or better off.  Or giving up rights for a good cause.  Or in the case of the mob attack, taking away the rights of others while pretending to be righteous.  Roadways as not yours to block.  It is cruel short sighted, and sociopathic.  If you cannot see why it is wrong I personally believe it should be legal to run them down after warning a few times with the horn.

You have a bunch of violent racists pounding your car because you aren't them, tell you do not feel threatened.  I don't care what color, if you surround me and try to basically imprison me there, damage property and maybe harm me, I will try to barrel through with no regard for life or limb.

People don't get it.  The police culture and government power have not been truly Constitutional or non-ultra statist forever.  It is us against them in their culture.  Government regulators, auditors, enforcers tend to almost hate the regulated from what I have seen.   But that is because too many stupid laws.   Too many sadistic ambitious prosecutors.

And then you have these liars claiming race, and that white people are so racist and cops all shoot black people.  Statistics do not support this.  If you commit the most murders you are going to draw a little fire.  So they are all about making it almost a sin to defend yourself against chosen races.  They do not care about maybe easing the squeeze of government.

These people do very little to actually break the cycle of wasted lives in the 'hood.  Instead they pretend.  They celebrate it as if the redneck culture which characterizes all rough neighborhoods, regardless of race, is artistic expression instead of the baser aspects of humans.  There is a difference in assuming one is an idiot or evil due to race, alone, and noting the idiocy of a culture, or subculture.

Idiots call you racist because they lime to pretend that they speak for everyone of their race or sex. Or both.  It is life.

My new cast is dark blue.  My left hand feels very important.  Glad I force myself to practice using left hand for things from time to time.  It pays off.

Finally Figured Out What They Don't Get

In the midst of the ever stranger election process, and the multitude of politicos and pundits simultaneously trashing Trump and his supporters, while questioning "how could they?", and also saying, "if you like Trump, F''' you!", I spotted what they miss.

Like the GQ guy with the big insults and on and on.  He is one of legions swimming in blue koolaid, spewing insults to earn nods from colleagues, who honestly do not get it.

Trump is actually irrelevant to the issue.  What they don't get is that many people are neither racist nor are they any of the other tired epithets thrown out at those who do not drink the koolaid.

Those people do not like the elitist attitudes, the smart aleck insults and ridicule, the intellectual bullying.  They do not like you, GQ author, Hillary, all of you.  They do not necessarily like Trump, but they love it that you don't like him.

The ad suggesting that all living presidents oppose him raises his creds.  Why?  Because people perceive all the ex potus crew to have contributed to the spread of terrorism and the erosion of rights, as well as difficulty making enough money to live.  (despite the fact we're told we are thriving like never before.  Evidence of this wonderful fact is lacking in many of our lives.)

But those, like ElizabethWarren and many pundits, can't figure it out because they don't realize it is that people are sick of them and their tired con.  Not everyone sees it.  Many still buy the usual nonsense.

Propaganda is so easy.  Even though it is known that blacks kill blacks at avery high rate.  No outrage.  The agitators cherry pick time and place then sow chaos.  The greedy cannot resist being able to play victim and justify theft , looting, vandalizing, and some good old cracker bashing.  Open season and it is all righteous because..victim!!

There is racism.  I have seen plenty.  In the last 30 years I have seen ten times more racism coming from minorities than anywhere else.  I'm talking, hateful, violent attitudes.  You know it and so does anyone.  But we pretend.  The result?  More dead people, more property damage, businesses and lives ruined so ignorant fools can slake their greed for power and cool stuff off of store shelves.  The thrill of beating o  white people and their cars.

Don't be throwing out a narrative sure to incite violence in  those who believe it without marching out all the facts and stats.  No one is being served by this except very sick super wealthy elitist bastards whose motives elude me.  I cannot relate.

Really.  Cut the BS.  There is a lot wrong and it does not boil down to unbalanced quotas.  But I would think people would be outraged by gang violence, drive-bys, kids getting killed, black people killing black people by the dozens in some cities in a month's time.

If Black Lives Matter really believed that, they'd do something real in the highest murder locales; Chicago, Memphis, everywhere else we pretend all is well.  They, GQ, this administration, et al, pretend it is white on black slaughter, which is nearly the reverse of what the numbers show.

So some people just do not like those who cultivated this heightened state of hatred.   And if Trump freaks them out that bad, maybe the best way to figuratively punch them in the nose is to vote for the person they hate.  They are possibly winning hearts and minds for their nemesis.

Not sure what I will do, but I so dislike a certain tone and culture that I am weighing what choices most undermine that crooked smarmy bunch of self righteous con artists.

In short, Trump is not the one bringing hatred to the fore, it is the status quo and the puppets they so shamelessly manipulate, fueling and prolonging their pain and ignorance anyway they can.  It means votes.

The all living ex potus club proves these despots are all in the same bed. yikes

There's plenty of red koolaid craziness too.  They just miss the point.  Blue koolaiders blatantly want a totalitarian state. They deny it but actions prove this. They think it solves all problems from engineering to diet;  government, that is.

The red koolaiders often get all confused between bible, constitution, and reason.  It helps the insanity of the blue freaks get enacted.  I hate when  idiots oppose what I oppose, except for idiotic or superstitious, or totally erroneous reasons.

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Finally Figured Out What They Don't Get

In the midst of the ever stranger election process, and the multitude of politicos and pundits simultaneously trashing Trump and his supporters, while questioning "how could they?", and also saying, "if you like Trump, F''' you!", I spotted what they miss.

Like the GQ guy with the big insults and on and on.  He is one of legions swimming in blue koolaid, spewing insults to earn nods from colleagues, who honestly do not get it.

Trump is actually irrelevant to the issue.  What they don't get is that many people are neither racist nor are they any of the other tired epithets thrown out at those who do not drink the koolaid.

Those people do not like the elitist attitudes, the smart aleck insults and ridicule, the intellectual bullying.  They do not like you, GQ author, Hillary, all of you.  They do not necessarily like Trump, but they love it that you don't like him.

The ad suggesting that all living presidents oppose him raises his creds.  Why?  Because people perceive all the ex potus crew to have contributed to the spread of terrorism and the erosion of rights, as well as difficulty making enough money to live.  (despite the fact we're told we are thriviung like never before.  Evidence is lacking.)

But those, like ElizabethWarren and many pundits can't figure it out because they don't realize it is that people are sick of them and their tired con.  Not everyone sees it.  Many still buy the usual nonsense.

Propaganda is so easy.  Even though it is known that blacks kill blacks at avery high rate.  No outrage.  The agitators cherry [ick time and place then sow chaos.  The greedy cannot resist being able to play victim and justify theft , looting, vandalizing, and some good old cracker bashing.  Open season and it is all righteous because..victim!!

There is racism.  I have seen plenty.  In the last 30 years I have seen ten times more racism coming from minorities than anywhere else.  I'm talking, hateful, violent attitudes.  You know it and so does anyone.  But we pretend.  The result?  More dead people, more property damage, businesses and lives ruined so ignorant fools can slake their greed for power and cool stuff off of store shelves.  The thrill of beating o  white people and their cars.

Don't be throwing out a narrative sure to incite violence i  those who believe it without marching out all the facts and stats.  No one is being served by this except very sick super wealthy elitist bastards whose motives elude me.  I cannot relate.

Really.  Cut the BS.  There is a lot wrong and it does not boil down to unbalanced quotas.  But I would think people would be outraged by gang violence, drive-bys, kids getting killed, black people killing black people by the dozens in some cities in a month's time.  If Black Lives Matter really believed that, they'd do something real in the highest murder locales; Chicago, Memphis, everywhere else they pretend it is some white on black slaughter, which is nearly the reverse of what the numbers show.

So some people just do not like those who cultivated this heightened state of hatred.   And if Trump freaks them out that bad, maybe the best way to figuratively punch them in the nose is to vote for the person they hate.  They are possibly winning hearts and minds for their nemesis.

Not sure what I will do, but I so dislike a certain tone and culture that I am weighing what choices most undermine that crooked smarmy bunch of self righteous con artists.

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Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Same hand, Same foolishness

Well this time I didn't slip on the ice in the Greensboro airport parking lot, while playing soccer with a basketball, using the doorway to my booth as the goal.  I was toll troll at that time.   And loved the job.  Always worked the night shift.  I was doing an independent project patenting a system I used for cleaning air in cotton mills.

I was married, and almost happy.  I was happy, but did not know how happy at the time.  That was a beautiful time.  I killed that.

Now, very similar injury.  Similar cast, no wife, and these are less joyful times. But it is what I did not know, or what I thought I knew that wasn't true, that sabotaged abundance and stability.

Starting over all the time seems wrong.  Doing nothing as much as I have seems wrong.  Either way, here we are.

Playing my style of harmonica relies on my hands like crazy.  Especially the immobilized thumb.  It musty have been the reference to every note.  Hard to explain.  When I ry to play, it is obvious how reliant I was.  I can still play.  Now it is more like they tell you how.  Hold with left, accent with right.  I have always held it differently, and left does all the stuff.  But you have ot form and good seal between hands to pull it off.  No can do with a cast.

I better just settle in.  This will be at least three weeks,  But maybe they can change it.  Make a smaller cast.   No one thinks it will heal in 3 weeks, but we'll see if it is going that direction when I see them for that 3 week check up.  The cast will come off if even only for that moment.










Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Boils Down to This

Oh no.  I got distracted and lost my train of thought.  I started to write some stuff.  Then I sat back and looked at it.  Rubbish.  So bad it was almost funny.
 Actually it was funny.  You will never see it though.  The evidence is gone.  

A scene may include humor, but only if you aren't in the middle of it.  It happens once in awhile.

Not same thought, but it does come to this:  The thuggery and entitlement attitudes have to go.  And systems which guarantee filth and poverty have to go, like caste systems and the like.

With the technology and such available, humanity could have a very peaceful, high standard of living.  But people like to fight, covet, and be small minded twits.  Government, religion, and inability of the populace to transform from the rape and pillage past to less fatal grounds.  Not all people, of course.  But enough.   I think it is subconscious.

The very people preaching peace and tolerance for any exploding lunatic that happens by, are the first to set up long term wars and skirmishes.  It is subtle, I suppose, but the actual ruin of cities and countries isn't so subtle.

I better back off.  The tried and true marketing strategy that appeals to the cream of the nitwit crop will be in full swing.

May the one God doesn't strike down with lightening win.  Amen.

Away From News

Of course, I hear bits and pieces, but surprisingly little in the last few days.  When you step away, and then you see things from a different viewpoint.  Not necessarily point of view, however.

I tend to feel like many of the supporters of both major candidates, the ones they convince us are the only choices.  Third parties are only protest votes, blablabla.  I no longer have a solid opinion regarding third, fourth and beyond parties.  I have almost always voted third party.  All my voting life.  I do not think it is a throw away.

However, if you are a never Trump or never Hillary person, your best bet is to vote one of the two to prevent the other from winning.  But if you are a never one of those two, but can't bring yourself to vote for the other, then you should vote third party, convincing yourself that this will help take down whichever is your most disliked candidate. And it may.  But you didn't have to vote for someone you would not trust ever.  You voted your conscience.

Or you just took the least nauseating route.  You can't fake such things, and it sometimes makes the desire for your presence among polite company somewhat scarce.

You can always vote for the other of the anointed ones, while strategically voting for senators and such from the opposite party.

One bit of news I would like to investigate more is the proposed bill that limits bills to one topic.  The One Topic, One Bill bill.  I might have used different words, but I am pleased to see a move in the right direction.  You have to very carefully observe the words used in such bills.  It can be tricky.

If the legislation is as represented, then such a spotlight should be on it that no one would want to be airing their corruption in the open like that.  It would be very hard to justify why they don't like the veil being pulled off tax paid boondoggles in the form of riders and such on bills.  The backbone of the crony culture is the ability to deceive.  Forcing a bill not to include irrelevant nonsense makes it a little tougher to trick everyone.  Tougher to do favors for the power brokers you owe.

Some of it is just the go-team need in people. They choose one and become a rabid fan.  Go team go.
Seriously, though, the propaganda machine that is cnn et al is very transparent these days.  I tend to think it waxes hyperbolic.   There is some on both sides, but the 24/7 anti Trumpism is the more pronounced and reactive by far.

It's on youtube.  Both candidates are criminals and/or satanists and/or whatever.   So, you share the videos your team uses against the opponent.  The theatrical aspect of this entire drama does not put you on edge.  It does me.  It really is theater, right down to the make-up people.

Something seems wrong.  I am pretty sure a majority would support a state and federal waiver for Trump and Hillary to have an old fashioned duel with pistols.  I find that a little sad. No idea how it would influence second amendment issues.  They both would probably have snipers all over.  Maybe they cancel each other out, strategically.   If the snipers are smart, they leave it at that, and have a beer or a nap or something.  They probably are, so I expect both sides' snipers reached an accord.

Of course there will be no such contest between these two unusual humans.   The  real contest will be which of these two is the most painful to see hear and or touch over time.  Or the least painful.  I would imagine seeking the least pain would be the most popular strategy.   But definition is everything.

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