What Triggers the Relatively Quiet Anger

Whether the anger is at myself or at the official world of the state and all the people who go along, thinking they are clever and smart, I am not sure.  Probably both; everyone.

Don't get me wrong, I love systems that remove salt from sea water, harvest energy from sun, wind and waves.   I tend to think much of it is nonsense and pure 100% crony/political theft wrapped in "green".

I seriously doubt that the monstrosities being put in the ocean to catch wind in the northeast are anywhere close to the most elegant, efficient, non-intrusive system possible and available.  But that's another story.  Feats of engineering in their own way, and splendidly grandiose, but a boondoggle of sorts.  I will just leave that.   Not going to argue the pros and cons of such monopoly and state efforts.

What does hit a nerve with me is when I see some video or meme on facebook cheering in amazement that someone has an idea or system that uses waves to produce the power to purify the sea water.  I argued with people in the seventies about just such systems.  I noted the inevitable doom that centralized water and power production can bring.  I met people involved in all sorts of energy saving, or sustainable fuel efforts.  They gave up due to government intractability.  Bullying and ridiculous action by agencies.

People still think that politicians with "vision" are the answer.  They are just too goddamed stupid and ego-bound to see that those are the ones queering the danged deal.  They are the ones who made it illegal to generate your own power.  Yes that is true.

The real bottom line is, in some ways I am truly an idiot.  Obviously, or I'd have an adoring, adorable wife and better handle on day to day life in civilization.  But in other ways, I am no idiot.  And that can be very frustrating.  Like those people who read and talk about science, but have no clue what equations are or how any of that bears on results.  But they pretend to be all scientific and intellectual. Talk show lab geniuses.  And then they go on and on about "believing" in science.   Do you realize how idiotic that actually sounds?

A subset of the group I referred to, decades ago, as Johnny Carson intellectuals.  Either you get that or you don't.  No judgement or reflection on anyone.

Obviously people who are clueless about what science even is.  Believe in it.  Yea, I believed in elves and science, and the Druid faith, pbut, and the holy trees therein.

Those are usually people who think it is great for government to promote some business over others, which the whole "sustainable energy" prank by the state is totally designed to do.

But the idea that only now do people want alternatives to expensive electricity and gasoline is bunk.  Edison, Ford, Firestone, even Lindberg were obsessed with discovering renewable fuels and other resources.  They actually were.  This is where the majority can be trouble.  The public has suckered for every nonsensical insult to their humanity.  I would say intelligence but I am not certain there is enough there to insult.

Look how the auto world developed.  Most makes changing the chrome and fins and stupid looks every year.   If people had been out for reliability and savings, etc., the companies may have done things differently.  People wanted schmaltz and glitz and some bizarre assurance that they, too, could be studs and sirens.

Some cool stuff went into it, but look at the design.  They should be easy to repair and set up in modules, for quick interchange and ease of trouble shooting.  Cars are a pain to work on.  Planes are less frustrating because that is life or death.  So they aren't all nonsense.

Anyway, people are idiots.  All worked up now about energy, the end of the world and on and on.  But I tell you they are out of the same idiot factory as those who let it be damned near illegal to experiment with fuels or energy on your own.

OK. People are just weak and confused and maybe a little insecure.  Not really idiots, but maybe they act as if a lot.

I know, someone will say I have provided no for instance. No nothing.  I realize that.  I just don't want to get all tied up in it.  The real point is, the state needs to back off, and protect the independent manufacturer who may rankle the industry hotshots.  Protect instead of propose crony written legislation which helps the hot shots in the field gain an advantage over the upstarts.  This is why we aren't almost all energy independent.  Every dwelling or small group of dwellings should be independent.  But not by government mandate.

They got gung ho about the time certain large energy interests bought up solar cell and battery technology and the state of the art was such that it worked.  Oil companies mostly own that stuff.  I think they are just messing with each other--especially small interlopers trying to compete.  And they are doing like textiles did before the major players of that industry destroyed the manufacturing in the US.  It is a game played by amoral people who apparently want limits on the average standard of living.

It's incoherent.  Oh well.  I am just so stunned how dimwitted so many people are.  Their way around it is to fit in and hang with the mob.  The mob will turn on anyone who doesn't accept the mob's convoluted rationale for vandalism or murder.

Any time ever that you hear politicians talking about any particular energy system or saying we must support this one or not that one, just know they are playing you right then and there.

Got That Out of the Way

OK.  No more need to stalk electors or bully their families.  The deed is done, and that is that, presumably.  Some things die harder than others.  

I really have to say, the whole Russian thing seems very odd to me.   But then the entire world of governments is beyond reason.  Wikileaks people say it was not a state actor.  I don't know.  I do know that misinformation is the way things are done.  I do notice, though, that the big talk is of the Rooskies "hacking the election".  Even according to all allegations this is false.

They hacked emails and such.  That is not the election.  But it works way better to attack as if the Russians are the real republicans rather than address the dirty tricks revealed in the leaks.

I don't know if it came out for better or worse.  It will be a worse that I don't know, which may be better than the worse I know.  Not sure.  Anything that has democrats actually acknowledging that we are a republic, and saying the word "Constitution" out loud cannot be all bad.

But the dimwits, in their typical knee-jerk fashion, now want to can the electoral college.  That is because more than once it did not go their way.  And because they do not truly grasp the danger, or even the concept of tyranny of the majority.  I would be saying the same thing regardless of outcome.

The fact that people felt Hillary is any less dangerous than her opponent is a testament to how gullible people can be when they put their minds to it.  The real dynamics at play have much more to do with cultivated resentments, peer acceptance, validation of one's intellect, sense of belonging, etc.

People won't admit it, but that drives a huge percentage of the population.  Now that the politics of ethnicity, etc, identity politics, has somehow been deemed reasonable, honorable and virtuous, the discussion is over.   If I say you are nuts, wrong, etc., it is probably my white privilege, and if you are female I am automatically a misogynist.  When everything becomes filtered through race and ethnicity as if those things are virtuous qualities, what's to discuss?  You are born this way or that.  Probably a victim. Most people are.  I am. Not sure of what, but I do feel the impact.

Truthfully, I can't watch much.  Republicans are like caricatures of themselves, it seems.  Really.  Paint yourselves as the opposition to the democrats and all you do is help them.   It's yikes or yikes.  Really.

I won't complain.  You pay my medical if it gets real expensive and we'll call it a day.  Thanks in advance.  It's OK.  The means to control populations are becoming more and more sophisticated, and accepted.

The insane cold has somewhat abated.  Bedridden for two days.  Any fast movement, and insane coughing or intense nausea.  Then all of a sudden, it became about 55% better.  Suddenly.
Like a Christmas Miracle.   Once again I am pulled from the jaws of death, or the bottomless abyss.

No, Not The Twitter!!!

I don't actually check twitter.  My twitting info comes from third party sources.  Are you kidding?  I want to follow and maybe become addicted to yet another stupid thing?  No thanks.

So, I see somewhere that Donald tweets after Baldwin does his impression of Trump.  Once again he is all of on a defensive rant; Baldwin is terrible, the show isn't funny, unwatchable, words to that effect.

The thing is, Donald Trump and Alec Baldwin both have that really base kind of attitude.  Baldwin called his young daughter a pig.  They both have no class.  That is why they are always in little tiffs with someone.  Now it is each other; a match made in Queens, I guess.

I remember how I would cringe when the Donald vs Rosie thing was going on.  Both of them were so idiotic and low, crude, rude and obnoxious.

He is still unaware, as are many of his supporters that his deciding votes came from people voting against the entire political culture and establishment.  They did not vote for Trump, per se.  Many most likely know they elected a possible lunatic.  That twitter finger of his set to hair trigger does nothing to dispel this notion.

But I had to laugh.  I really did.  People got so fed up with the attitude and the BS and the overbearing insanity of the status quo that they elected a frickin'--no one is sure--to be president.  And the more they lockstep left freaks out, the more it eggs Twitter Finger into action, and the more crazy stuff he puts out there.

People are still worrying about nonsense.  The lbgt and sometimes q groups making up stuff.  It isn't happening, and it is the least of the worries in this country.  The stuff that dems do; divide and anger by race, lbgt and sometimes q, sex, national origin, and any other non philosophical difference they can create.

What needs worry is that damned twitter account.  They need to ban politicians.  At least the ones in office.  It gives you a reason to vote for them--no more twitter for a term.  Trump should listen; no more twitter, and your numbers will go up.

I caught a little excerpt from the View--vomit--listening to Joy Bahar praise Castro and their "top notch healthcare for all" and 100% literacy.  That is the koolaid left position so of course she takes that.  What idiots.  But she was there, and of course she was not guided or controlled while there.   Joy is one of those who is just smart enough to think she is really bright, but too stupid to know she is not.

But please, let's not get in a war with her.  She's another with that classless thing.  Must be a specific neighborhood in New York.  Sorry, but you know it is true.  Crass, rude and proud of being scuz.

Before You get All Worked Up

{although I do admit, these are wacko times}

No need to go ballistic over bad info, so maybe it is worth examining just a little bit further.  I am not sure which came first the sensational half truths and non truths, or people hungering for reasons to go nuts, be hysterical and maybe hurt property and other people.

It is pretty stupid, whatever the case.  It is dangerous and less fun than things that are fun.

Here are some examples.  You do not have to like the people being accused of all these things, but you cannot be calling people kkk who aren't, nazi and all that when it is unsubstantiated and false.  Your extrapolation of what the policies of these people may yield could point to all that racist, fascist stuff, but that does not make it so.   The exaggerated fears and constant hand wringing and hysterical pleas to stand up, resist and blablabla are so over the top.

No way to tell the hard core about this.  They think moveon.org news is real, and that only the right wing outfits lie and mislead.  Why bother?

I see the same on the right.  Far less hysteria lately, and I hear the left complain about hostility but I have only seen left wing violence on any scale.  They punched a horse and I will hold a grudge for awhile.

Also, you can show a picture of a group of people walking down a dirt road, apparently in the middle of nowhere, but that does not really constitute proof that they just hopped across the Rio Grande at the border and are walking to the nearest sanctuary city.  The pictures show no context.  Just a dirt road, Mexican looking families walking, brush on either side, not much else.  Impossible to determine the location from that.  It could be anywhere, so beware those who may be trying to play you.

Just is not proof.  

And I am one who thinks we are idiots in how we handle immigration, and not one that leans toward the sanctuary city concept.   Most people here have no clue what it takes to legally reside in other countries and how they punish trespassers.  They don't even realize Mexico's immigration laws and enforcement are more draconian, by far, than our own.

But self hating Americans are in vogue.  Or think they are.  So, it matters not what you say, they claim America is evil, and they break it down by race.  Left hand politics are racist by definition.  It is their bread and butter--ginning up group hate, envy, anything to divide and anger.

I realize that what passes as the opposition is nuts.  That is troubling.  They, too, refuse to see that government and laws are not always the best way.  They can't imagine a freer setup.  They only imagine a setup in which they are able to enforce the stuff they are eager to prosecute.  

In reality, the border thing is a big smokescreen for harassing citizens without cause.  It is one thing to have the border crossing station and all that but another to have permanent roadblocks on major highways which do not ever even cross the border.  These are many miles away.  20, 60, and more.

Border patrol has no legitimate right to do this.  This is the federal government trying to run roughshod over the population.  In is wrong.  But the law and order dimwits who go all John Wayne at the dumbest times are probably blubbering a bunch of "oh thank you for your service!"

Well for those who man stations not anywhere near the border and ask citizens where they've been, where they are going, and why, No thanks for your disservice.  Clearly they, and the people who created this encroaching police state do not give a damn about the constitution or your rights.

Once and For All; Fidel Was Not Good

It boggles the mind to see these lengthy articles claiming that Fidel improved life for Cubans and was a great fighter for freedom and justice.  I won't belabor the point too much.

Go find the older Cubans in Miami, go somewhere and get a few facts.  Or just assume that Mao and Stalin did wonderful things, too and be an idiot until you end up on the wrong side of one of these great democracy warriors.

That's the left wing of American politics.  The real desire appears to be Castro-sty;e totalitarianism. So, quit pretending!!!  Just come out with it.  Oh, right, some already have.

Remember, Che and Raul, joked about the friendly competition with the firing squad purge, post revolution.  No mention is usually made that Cuba had ratified a constitution which Batista betrayed, and Castro was expected to restore.  Those who embraced his victory lap in Havana did not expect what they got.

But who cares.  Sub-standard health care for all, and even good healthcare for some.  The real cream of the crop would fly to Spain and elsewhere for really tricky stuff.  And now they say he cured homelessness and malnutrition among youth.  Really?   And birth defects---that is because they kill the defective.  Very high abortion rates.  And they are trying to rewrite it now so that Fidel is all rainbow excited and lbgtqrxyz friendly and probably trans gender.

It is beyond me what fuels the minds of the neo progressive kool aid factories.  I won't now jump to what these propaganda addled idiots consider the opposition, because what they call the opposition is no more sane than they are.

Opposition to both the left and right in this country is a belief in a constitutional republic with checks and balances.  A belief that our system is the best, so far, if you want to thwart totalitarianism, mob rule, and trendy knee-jerk reactions to alter laws and government on a whim.  

Neither side understands that you do not want your officials to have much power, no matter how wonderful they seem.  It is what you might call the systematic approach to governance rather than the cult of personality approach.

Few people I know get that distinction or why it is important.  That is why they are so easily lead, so easily fooled.  Plus the systemic approach, constitutional approach, if followed honorably, leaves little room for the bribes for votes pandering that has become the hallmark of our election circus.

I'm still in disbelief.  Because they think the "right" disliked Castro, they lie, and rewrite everything relevant to his life in order to make him a hero.    It is disgusting, really.  

How many of these people would be so supportive of these murderers if their loved ones were being brutalized, if they were thrown off their land and out of their house, if they were facing the firing squad because they knew the wrong people or worked some government job?

No, idiot progressives always think they will somehow be the elevated class; maybe lauded intellectuals, or somehow involved in enforcing the policies, not being the ones crushed.

It is beyond the 1984, Orwellian language.  Or maybe not. Maybe it is just starkly come to fruition.
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Personality Cult Politics Doesn't Work

People who think if only we get the right autocrat in office, all will be well.  And if their pick fails to instantly make it how they like, due to Constitutional constraints occasionally observed by Congress and others in government, they get all worked up.

People wanted a personality cult with Obama.  Nothing irked them more than supposed republican opposition, even when the dems had both houses.   Now others are doing the personality cult with Trump, trying to pretend the unconstitutional things that have been discussed are irrelevant.   To a point they are.  All of a sudden, Democrats care about the Constitution.  So that bit of theater is fun.

Watching the rationalizing is not particularly heart warming.   But what is even less encouraging is the apparent lack of understanding regarding the purpose of our constitution.  It is as if those sworn to uphold it, in whom we place certain trust, have no inkling of how our form of government works and why it was designed as it is.

It was set up to be semi idiot-proof, resistant to whim of majority or otherwise, and not dependent upon the fancy of a monarch regarding procedure and limits.  But people have been doing their damnedest to bring us back to that sort of thing.  There are very powerful people who like totalitarian society.  Never ceases to amaze.

Like the popular heroes who praised Fidel's legacy and life.  So, in the spirit of Justin and Colin, I will also praise the accomplishments of our old pal, El Comandante.  Maybe that is how you spell it.

Fidel was addressing the obesity crisis in Cuba long before it became all the rage in the USA.  His tactic, for the good of his people, was to preemptively attack the problem.  Even before it occurred.  Genius.  Just impoverish them to the point where they cannot find enough food to get fat.  And make them like it.  If they complained he just put them in fat farms.  Some capitalist pigs called those prisons.

Those same pigs call the malcontents, "dissidents".   No, my friends, they had it coming.  Fidel made education free and 1930's level medicine free to the non party/non government population.  Free healthcare for all.  Some healthcare a little more equal than others.

If nothing else, he should be remembered for his forward thinking and actions regarding the global obesity crisis.  You set the example of how to turn a first world country into an out of this world 3rd world plus nation. You rocked it, and got away with almost every violent crime in the book.  Genius!

No Twitter Twitting, Please

The worst thing in the evolution of politics in this country is the use of twitter.  I hated it even before Trump, and now I dislike it more.  He is always responding two seconds after whatever it is.  There is a point that you just go about your business and let the wrong battles drop.  Pick worthy things.

I cringe every time I see a story about any politician and what they say or others say about them on friggin twitter.  The old term "twit", which was used to denote twits, was there for a reason.
Case closed.

Move Over, Che

There's a new Spanish speaking dead guy in town, Fidel.  Let's get the T shirt presses ready.  Fidel on one side and Che on the other, or a pic of them golfing or fishing together.

Unbelievable.  Predictable though.  We have people in Congress who have actually praised China for having their act together domestically.

So here's the picture at the top of Reuters article.  They should be forgiven. Enough decades of misinformation and what becomes accepted as true replaces fact.

People are nuts.  But the real pictures should be of Calle Ocho in Miami.

They don't know that you need to be breaking windows and burning cop cars to show you really mean it.   

I am in disbelief of CNN's Cuban in Cuba coverage.  Unbelievable.  Really.  But it is a total waste of time to discuss it.  There are all these lockstep progressive/democrat positions, and some are based on totally false premises, and some are just nonsense.  

To pretend that Castro is a good guy one has to do it by saying Mao and Stalin, and some other communist dictators caused more deaths, therefore he was a heck of a guy.   Another thing that somehow got blurred was that the USA prevented Cubans from organizing to take the place back.  US never intended to succeed at taking him out or the would have.  

We actually aided him before he became him. 

This could work out, or it could mean absolutely nothing.

If I Ever

If I ever get out of this mess, which I now think is what they call hoarding, even though I don't quite get the term, I may start a business, or just a one man secret service, to help others like me get past it. I have searched the help avenues online.  I even called one, but her website was misleading.  Unless you have a huge estate or the like, you'll pay thousands extra.  She's Orange county and north mostly.

The majority of stuff is for the archetypical very old person in one of those old fashioned wicker backed wheel chairs, wearing a smoking jacket or ornate robe, blanket over knees, etc.  At least, so it seems.

I just want someone to do the work.  Every time I start I get so intensely sad and full of remorse and regret for where I am that I can't even move.  The only reason I don't just quit altogether is I feel so bad for leaving any work for others.  This is wrong and sick.

That is the truth of it.  And it is not that much.  I have no friends who have time to fool with it.  My friends on Pt Loma did help about five years ago.  Little progress has been made since and we have travelled backwards.  A sea of mail, unopened.  Government junk.  Insurance.  Who knows?

This is un fettered depression I think.  Psychosis of some type I bet.  That is simply unacceptable. I need a really good girlfriend or wife, but that is impossible until I fix my hide so it is once again a dwelling.  No one in the world want to be around me and come help me as I go through withdrawal from years of neglect and hiding.

I have never really cured this issue.  Not for most of my life.  The sadness part, not necessarily the other but that too.  I believe I get why, but I just have to get past it.  Life growing up should not ruin everything forever and do it so sneakily that youy don't even get what you've done-or not done-until too late.

This is a case of pure will.  More than anything, even stopping drinking.  This is dealing with another symptom of the same fear of reality and confusion that cause the drinking.  My own lack of certitude.  I had no desire to even drink.  I did it because that was who I ran with and running with them was a ticket out of the house.   That dynamic is totally bizarre and too sad to even relive this minute.   I do not think anyone knew how terribly sad I was, now that I look at it.  It may not have been obvious.  It was to me, but I just figured rejecting anything I thought about how things worked was the ticket.  Drink, be fickle, lose all feeling, be numb and forget all you think is good.  Just be unconscious.

Boy they just hit the tip of the iceberg in Miami with all the studies and psychological workups and counseling in the years after I stopped drinking.  I was stopped about four years before they got really into it.   Eventually I quit them.  Wrong again.  They wanted to make the state pay for me to get a doctorate, in any field they said.  The one lady had a pretty good plan.  I would have had to finish up the bachelor but that would have been doable back then.

Got to wonder what I was thinking in that whole take the girl who didn't care and her daughter to NC and save them thing.   OK.  I know what I was thinking.  I do not know why I was ignoring reality.

When that exploded I never quite got a grip again.  Almost, then no.  It is a self destructive and stubborn pattern.  Totally unnecessary.  Truly the coward's way out I guess.  But don't ever think being a coward is a picnic.  I will try to be the courageous one from now on.  I thought I was as a child and that is likely true.

How far into giving up I am is shocking.  That is what makes reversing the momentum a real bitch if you will excuse my lingo.  I do not tend to call people such names so the rude factor is minimal.

To Monarchists Trapped In This Republic

The whole First Lady routine is a made up PR scheme, and tends to be fueled by the legions of citizens who seem somehow enamored with pretending we live in some royal realm.   First Spouse.

No one voted for the spouse.  So why is it that they do things which involve tax money and government resources?  That should be nixed.  

What else should be nixed is the ability to attach irrelevant but significant ryders onto bills.  That is how sneaky deals get through.  That is why every bill reads "For blablabla, and other purposes".   No no no.   How did we ever come to accept letting these people more or less write themselves a blank check to barter cronyism, blackmail, whatever, with every bill.

A bill titled "To Save the Children" might end up with an add on to kill cats.  Titles of bills mean nothing.  Often they are misleading.

Anyway, the only reason to play the spouse vs spouse game is if you somehow equate them as the royal family.

I have always thought the thing of first souses having a cause and wasting taxes on it was ridiculous.  It is a holdover from the old days of feudal lords and such.  In that sort of monarchy the whole family gets to impose their will upon the people who pay for all of it and them.

In America we should be spared the oversight and unsolicited efforts of that part of the family which was not elected.   I don't care who it is.  Butt out.  Go Away.  Even if I agree with your policy or cause, no.  You get out.  To do less would make you an interloper who does not respect this system for running a country.  Which is foolish.  Done as written, it can be very good.

Anyway.  Michelle's designer won't dress Melania.  For political reasons, clearly.  Apparently no one actually asked her.  She just jumped out for some free pub.  I say let them eat cake, if you get the parallel.