Exorcise Me of Self Doubt, or something

Over the past several days an idea has been rolling around in my mind.  The concept evolved to the point where I felt I had a great idea for something that would be great on stage---bigger the theater, the better---or on screen.  It could easily work as a movie.

Here's the problem:  the idea is going to take a lot of work and thought from tat to finish.  I don't know yet how to best do it.

I see it as a little bit different than anything I've seen, but it incorporates music in an integral way, without really being a musical.  I see the fist one as a big overview of the character path and time span.  Then there should be two more; one which covers the more current setting, and another for a specific era in the past.

But that is not the real problem.  The real problem is that a soon as I get close to writing it down and working it out, a wave of self-doubt washes over me in a way that I can physically feel; a quick fleeting roller-coaster stomach.  And I suddenly forget my enthusiasm and confidence, and I think, "I can't do this.".  

I think that is the wrong way to feel if you're going to get anything done.  I know it is good, and I know that if I can get it out and staged how I see it, people are going to like it.  Enough people I should say.

That doesn't seem to dissolve that debilitating doubt and lack of whatever it is.  But I may have to just pursue this anyway.

Crazy people, one in particular, are really screwing up the little music scene I've been frequenting.  The upside is that it provides great material were one inclined to write stories, in whatever form.