Life and Punishment

There is probably crime involved, but nothing of the mainstream crime ilk, I don't think.  Some of it may be genetic or hereditary.  Some of my blood line have taken aloneness to ridiculously awful levels.  I may have surpassed the others, I expect.

For unknown reasons we indulge in the irrational, refuse good judgement and the result is isolation and loneliness.  It is like a punishment.  That is absolutely nuts.  And eventually fatal.

Even after all this time, I don't get it.  I can feel the handicap, not knowing how else to class it.  I don't even know how to define this "it".  But I know how it feels.   Limiting and like home at the same time.  But
never mind
Always can make use of what's there to best possible, and things go well.  But some have a built in motion brake.  If you do not have one, then you wouldn't believe how powerful it is.  It makes no sense.  But this is what we do; deal with the imaginary demons of life, and hope I don't somehow offend governmental people, real people, or other things.