Still Cranky...after all these years

It is really becoming harder to help than I expected. Too many things affect me and I can't do anything about it. Like the insane electric grid. Nothing to do but shut up and behave.

Never mind that I know the same money being spent now would supply a lot of power, generated where it is used. Never mind that the idea of being tracked and cataloged annoys me.

I was supposed to mellow and become one who refused to see what was no fun to see. I was supposed to become one of those guys who manages to profit while turning a blind eye to what goes down in the way of subtle human slavery and manipulation.
I was supposed to be the guy who looked at guys like me as kooks, a guy who could feel self satisfied calling himself a moderate. That way he won't be radical and stand out in any way. I was supposed to be moderate, dammit, the guy who goes along and is not ever labelled as weird.

Didn't work out that way. As it is I consider the guy I was supposed to be gutless, self deluded, cowardly, witless, greedy, and weak.

That's because I am still cranky