They're Probably Right

It hasn't escaped me that I have been a self absorbed broken record for quite some time.   Depressed, sick, and blablabla about whatever.  Originally I thought I was toning it down so maybe it was OK.  But I realize that is just not how it goes.  And that is as it should be.

Sometimes I think if I described the way most days are constructed, it would be too much.  Even some is too much.

The crux of the matter is that no one else really believes I am suddenly going to fall apart and kick the bucket.  Only I think that,. and I can be way off base when it comes to some things.  Knowing which things is not my strongest point of intelligence.

It seems like there are upcoming playing commitments.  I do not know what I will do Christmas.  There may be enough work here that I am better off not to go right now.