Every now and then I wonder what I could offer in written form that might be somewhat useful to young K.   I haven't been in the mentoring parental role since she was 9.   That was a long time ago.  She is now 21.
Not my blood, but I felt protective.  What a nut.
  Going in I knew the chances for sanity were slim but I barreled ahead. 
I deleted what I wrote here.  It was just unpleasant rehash of stupidity.  No point in that.
In the end, I don't have anything more to offer the lass.  If she were to ask, I would give my view of a situation.  Not much else to do at this point.   
She probably will fare better than mama K since she has ten times the smarts.  Momma was/is dumb as a rock, and I say that in the most complimentary sense.  I could have forgiven the dimwittedness had she been a devoted mother who put the child's welfare first.
I was in such denial, probably due to mama K's "athletic" prowess, that I rationalized away the lack of intellect, pretending it was but a temporary condition.  Who's the dimwit in that case?
I've already covered most matters the best I could, when I could.  Now I hear nothing, and know nothing.  I make overtures now and then and let her know she's loved.  
I've had enough of my own disconnect from real life, potential, stability, etc.  I don't suppose my track record makes me the authority on how not to squander your life and live in regret.
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I don't know about all that, but at least you're not creepy.
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Thanks. That is about the best thing I could hear. I know it comes from reliable sources.
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