When First You Practice To Deceive

...you don't perceive the web you weave.    This fake oppression, relatively speaking, and its manufactured reactions will come back haunt the fools who keep these lies alive.   Many of them confused, guilty whites who think the world was safe and peaceful until their european ancestors learned how to drive boats.    I'm sorry, but most of the world was, and still is, as stupid and brutal as your cracker forebears.

Hopeless.  White misanthropes who particularly hate those of their own race and ethnicity do everything they can to fan the flames, pretending it is compassion.  I call it disrespect.  They think minorities are easy to manipulate.  And things have been set up so that they are easy.

However, it is beginning to be more difficult to just assume you can herd them like cattle with no effort.   News stations have become so transparently dishonest, biased, and manipulative that it astounds me that people believe it.  But, there is always some payoff, and it doesn't take much.  Victim card!  Yea, Buddy!

So in Charlotte, like most events of this nature, paid thugs and "community activists" are shaping the story, the propaganda, and creating the violence.  They would love to goad the cops into shooting, but I think they prefer locals carry the front lines in that situation.

It is a fabricated outrage.   Cops tend to shoot lots of different kinds of people.  In Baltimore Black cops are more likely to fire their weapon.  I think distinctions are stupid but if you play it on one side, you need to be consistent.  All the facts.  I do not think it is racial.  Not these days.

What we have is social manipulation.  Politics.  The result always being less personal freedom and some pretense of being safer or better off.  Or giving up rights for a good cause.  Or in the case of the mob attack, taking away the rights of others while pretending to be righteous.  Roadways as not yours to block.  It is cruel short sighted, and sociopathic.  If you cannot see why it is wrong I personally believe it should be legal to run them down after warning a few times with the horn.

You have a bunch of violent racists pounding your car because you aren't them, tell you do not feel threatened.  I don't care what color, if you surround me and try to basically imprison me there, damage property and maybe harm me, I will try to barrel through with no regard for life or limb.

People don't get it.  The police culture and government power have not been truly Constitutional or non-ultra statist forever.  It is us against them in their culture.  Government regulators, auditors, enforcers tend to almost hate the regulated from what I have seen.   But that is because too many stupid laws.   Too many sadistic ambitious prosecutors.

And then you have these liars claiming race, and that white people are so racist and cops all shoot black people.  Statistics do not support this.  If you commit the most murders you are going to draw a little fire.  So they are all about making it almost a sin to defend yourself against chosen races.  They do not care about maybe easing the squeeze of government.

These people do very little to actually break the cycle of wasted lives in the 'hood.  Instead they pretend.  They celebrate it as if the redneck culture which characterizes all rough neighborhoods, regardless of race, is artistic expression instead of the baser aspects of humans.  There is a difference in assuming one is an idiot or evil due to race, alone, and noting the idiocy of a culture, or subculture.

Idiots call you racist because they lime to pretend that they speak for everyone of their race or sex. Or both.  It is life.

My new cast is dark blue.  My left hand feels very important.  Glad I force myself to practice using left hand for things from time to time.  It pays off.

Finally Figured Out What They Don't Get

In the midst of the ever stranger election process, and the multitude of politicos and pundits simultaneously trashing Trump and his supporters, while questioning "how could they?", and also saying, "if you like Trump, F''' you!", I spotted what they miss.

Like the GQ guy with the big insults and on and on.  He is one of legions swimming in blue koolaid, spewing insults to earn nods from colleagues, who honestly do not get it.

Trump is actually irrelevant to the issue.  What they don't get is that many people are neither racist nor are they any of the other tired epithets thrown out at those who do not drink the koolaid.

Those people do not like the elitist attitudes, the smart aleck insults and ridicule, the intellectual bullying.  They do not like you, GQ author, Hillary, all of you.  They do not necessarily like Trump, but they love it that you don't like him.

The ad suggesting that all living presidents oppose him raises his creds.  Why?  Because people perceive all the ex potus crew to have contributed to the spread of terrorism and the erosion of rights, as well as difficulty making enough money to live.  (despite the fact we're told we are thriving like never before.  Evidence of this wonderful fact is lacking in many of our lives.)

But those, like ElizabethWarren and many pundits, can't figure it out because they don't realize it is that people are sick of them and their tired con.  Not everyone sees it.  Many still buy the usual nonsense.

Propaganda is so easy.  Even though it is known that blacks kill blacks at avery high rate.  No outrage.  The agitators cherry pick time and place then sow chaos.  The greedy cannot resist being able to play victim and justify theft , looting, vandalizing, and some good old cracker bashing.  Open season and it is all righteous because..victim!!

There is racism.  I have seen plenty.  In the last 30 years I have seen ten times more racism coming from minorities than anywhere else.  I'm talking, hateful, violent attitudes.  You know it and so does anyone.  But we pretend.  The result?  More dead people, more property damage, businesses and lives ruined so ignorant fools can slake their greed for power and cool stuff off of store shelves.  The thrill of beating o  white people and their cars.

Don't be throwing out a narrative sure to incite violence in  those who believe it without marching out all the facts and stats.  No one is being served by this except very sick super wealthy elitist bastards whose motives elude me.  I cannot relate.

Really.  Cut the BS.  There is a lot wrong and it does not boil down to unbalanced quotas.  But I would think people would be outraged by gang violence, drive-bys, kids getting killed, black people killing black people by the dozens in some cities in a month's time.

If Black Lives Matter really believed that, they'd do something real in the highest murder locales; Chicago, Memphis, everywhere else we pretend all is well.  They, GQ, this administration, et al, pretend it is white on black slaughter, which is nearly the reverse of what the numbers show.

So some people just do not like those who cultivated this heightened state of hatred.   And if Trump freaks them out that bad, maybe the best way to figuratively punch them in the nose is to vote for the person they hate.  They are possibly winning hearts and minds for their nemesis.

Not sure what I will do, but I so dislike a certain tone and culture that I am weighing what choices most undermine that crooked smarmy bunch of self righteous con artists.

In short, Trump is not the one bringing hatred to the fore, it is the status quo and the puppets they so shamelessly manipulate, fueling and prolonging their pain and ignorance anyway they can.  It means votes.

The all living ex potus club proves these despots are all in the same bed. yikes

There's plenty of red koolaid craziness too.  They just miss the point.  Blue koolaiders blatantly want a totalitarian state. They deny it but actions prove this. They think it solves all problems from engineering to diet;  government, that is.

The red koolaiders often get all confused between bible, constitution, and reason.  It helps the insanity of the blue freaks get enacted.  I hate when  idiots oppose what I oppose, except for idiotic or superstitious, or totally erroneous reasons.

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Finally Figured Out What They Don't Get

In the midst of the ever stranger election process, and the multitude of politicos and pundits simultaneously trashing Trump and his supporters, while questioning "how could they?", and also saying, "if you like Trump, F''' you!", I spotted what they miss.

Like the GQ guy with the big insults and on and on.  He is one of legions swimming in blue koolaid, spewing insults to earn nods from colleagues, who honestly do not get it.

Trump is actually irrelevant to the issue.  What they don't get is that many people are neither racist nor are they any of the other tired epithets thrown out at those who do not drink the koolaid.

Those people do not like the elitist attitudes, the smart aleck insults and ridicule, the intellectual bullying.  They do not like you, GQ author, Hillary, all of you.  They do not necessarily like Trump, but they love it that you don't like him.

The ad suggesting that all living presidents oppose him raises his creds.  Why?  Because people perceive all the ex potus crew to have contributed to the spread of terrorism and the erosion of rights, as well as difficulty making enough money to live.  (despite the fact we're told we are thriviung like never before.  Evidence is lacking.)

But those, like ElizabethWarren and many pundits can't figure it out because they don't realize it is that people are sick of them and their tired con.  Not everyone sees it.  Many still buy the usual nonsense.

Propaganda is so easy.  Even though it is known that blacks kill blacks at avery high rate.  No outrage.  The agitators cherry [ick time and place then sow chaos.  The greedy cannot resist being able to play victim and justify theft , looting, vandalizing, and some good old cracker bashing.  Open season and it is all righteous because..victim!!

There is racism.  I have seen plenty.  In the last 30 years I have seen ten times more racism coming from minorities than anywhere else.  I'm talking, hateful, violent attitudes.  You know it and so does anyone.  But we pretend.  The result?  More dead people, more property damage, businesses and lives ruined so ignorant fools can slake their greed for power and cool stuff off of store shelves.  The thrill of beating o  white people and their cars.

Don't be throwing out a narrative sure to incite violence i  those who believe it without marching out all the facts and stats.  No one is being served by this except very sick super wealthy elitist bastards whose motives elude me.  I cannot relate.

Really.  Cut the BS.  There is a lot wrong and it does not boil down to unbalanced quotas.  But I would think people would be outraged by gang violence, drive-bys, kids getting killed, black people killing black people by the dozens in some cities in a month's time.  If Black Lives Matter really believed that, they'd do something real in the highest murder locales; Chicago, Memphis, everywhere else they pretend it is some white on black slaughter, which is nearly the reverse of what the numbers show.

So some people just do not like those who cultivated this heightened state of hatred.   And if Trump freaks them out that bad, maybe the best way to figuratively punch them in the nose is to vote for the person they hate.  They are possibly winning hearts and minds for their nemesis.

Not sure what I will do, but I so dislike a certain tone and culture that I am weighing what choices most undermine that crooked smarmy bunch of self righteous con artists.

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Same hand, Same foolishness

Well this time I didn't slip on the ice in the Greensboro airport parking lot, while playing soccer with a basketball, using the doorway to my booth as the goal.  I was toll troll at that time.   And loved the job.  Always worked the night shift.  I was doing an independent project patenting a system I used for cleaning air in cotton mills.

I was married, and almost happy.  I was happy, but did not know how happy at the time.  That was a beautiful time.  I killed that.

Now, very similar injury.  Similar cast, no wife, and these are less joyful times. But it is what I did not know, or what I thought I knew that wasn't true, that sabotaged abundance and stability.

Starting over all the time seems wrong.  Doing nothing as much as I have seems wrong.  Either way, here we are.

Playing my style of harmonica relies on my hands like crazy.  Especially the immobilized thumb.  It musty have been the reference to every note.  Hard to explain.  When I ry to play, it is obvious how reliant I was.  I can still play.  Now it is more like they tell you how.  Hold with left, accent with right.  I have always held it differently, and left does all the stuff.  But you have ot form and good seal between hands to pull it off.  No can do with a cast.

I better just settle in.  This will be at least three weeks,  But maybe they can change it.  Make a smaller cast.   No one thinks it will heal in 3 weeks, but we'll see if it is going that direction when I see them for that 3 week check up.  The cast will come off if even only for that moment.

Boils Down to This

Oh no.  I got distracted and lost my train of thought.  I started to write some stuff.  Then I sat back and looked at it.  Rubbish.  So bad it was almost funny.
 Actually it was funny.  You will never see it though.  The evidence is gone.  

A scene may include humor, but only if you aren't in the middle of it.  It happens once in awhile.

Not same thought, but it does come to this:  The thuggery and entitlement attitudes have to go.  And systems which guarantee filth and poverty have to go, like caste systems and the like.

With the technology and such available, humanity could have a very peaceful, high standard of living.  But people like to fight, covet, and be small minded twits.  Government, religion, and inability of the populace to transform from the rape and pillage past to less fatal grounds.  Not all people, of course.  But enough.   I think it is subconscious.

The very people preaching peace and tolerance for any exploding lunatic that happens by, are the first to set up long term wars and skirmishes.  It is subtle, I suppose, but the actual ruin of cities and countries isn't so subtle.

I better back off.  The tried and true marketing strategy that appeals to the cream of the nitwit crop will be in full swing.

May the one God doesn't strike down with lightening win.  Amen.

Away From News

Of course, I hear bits and pieces, but surprisingly little in the last few days.  When you step away, and then you see things from a different viewpoint.  Not necessarily point of view, however.

I tend to feel like many of the supporters of both major candidates, the ones they convince us are the only choices.  Third parties are only protest votes, blablabla.  I no longer have a solid opinion regarding third, fourth and beyond parties.  I have almost always voted third party.  All my voting life.  I do not think it is a throw away.

However, if you are a never Trump or never Hillary person, your best bet is to vote one of the two to prevent the other from winning.  But if you are a never one of those two, but can't bring yourself to vote for the other, then you should vote third party, convincing yourself that this will help take down whichever is your most disliked candidate. And it may.  But you didn't have to vote for someone you would not trust ever.  You voted your conscience.

Or you just took the least nauseating route.  You can't fake such things, and it sometimes makes the desire for your presence among polite company somewhat scarce.

You can always vote for the other of the anointed ones, while strategically voting for senators and such from the opposite party.

One bit of news I would like to investigate more is the proposed bill that limits bills to one topic.  The One Topic, One Bill bill.  I might have used different words, but I am pleased to see a move in the right direction.  You have to very carefully observe the words used in such bills.  It can be tricky.

If the legislation is as represented, then such a spotlight should be on it that no one would want to be airing their corruption in the open like that.  It would be very hard to justify why they don't like the veil being pulled off tax paid boondoggles in the form of riders and such on bills.  The backbone of the crony culture is the ability to deceive.  Forcing a bill not to include irrelevant nonsense makes it a little tougher to trick everyone.  Tougher to do favors for the power brokers you owe.

Some of it is just the go-team need in people. They choose one and become a rabid fan.  Go team go.
Seriously, though, the propaganda machine that is cnn et al is very transparent these days.  I tend to think it waxes hyperbolic.   There is some on both sides, but the 24/7 anti Trumpism is the more pronounced and reactive by far.

It's on youtube.  Both candidates are criminals and/or satanists and/or whatever.   So, you share the videos your team uses against the opponent.  The theatrical aspect of this entire drama does not put you on edge.  It does me.  It really is theater, right down to the make-up people.

Something seems wrong.  I am pretty sure a majority would support a state and federal waiver for Trump and Hillary to have an old fashioned duel with pistols.  I find that a little sad. No idea how it would influence second amendment issues.  They both would probably have snipers all over.  Maybe they cancel each other out, strategically.   If the snipers are smart, they leave it at that, and have a beer or a nap or something.  They probably are, so I expect both sides' snipers reached an accord.

Of course there will be no such contest between these two unusual humans.   The  real contest will be which of these two is the most painful to see hear and or touch over time.  Or the least painful.  I would imagine seeking the least pain would be the most popular strategy.   But definition is everything.

What a Too Weird Life

Seriously, I know I complain too much about being a dimwit and doing it all wrong.  But I figured out I probably can't change.

It is like converting from non-carnivore to carnivore, I just cannot quite do it.  Or won't.  If your life depended upon it I would take a bite out of a live wildebeest.   But we are not in those circumstances.

It took from 8 A.M. until 4:47 P.M. to get the orthopedic appointment.   There is an ASAP referral in the system, which could mean anything, apparently.  I guess the world of healthcare is slammed busy.

Part of that is because people like the attention.  Part is because they feel bound to do something or give you something if you come in.  And if you get good stuff, then you will keep coming back.  I do not think it is intentional most of the time.  Doctors. for the most part, really want to help you out.  That is why it is hard for them to say, "you will be OK, get out of here."  They are human too so they do not generally enjoy not being liked, and they don't like uncomfortable conflict with patients.

You get some drip weasels like Dr Flores.  He must not have known just who I am.

Anyway, I was impatient and wondering if any calls worked, until they finally called back.  At 8, they said they's call right back.  At 1 they said they'd call right back.  Then I tried other numbers.  And the computer interface "myscripps".  So friendly.  Too bad it is highly unintuitive hard to navigate.  It proved a dead end for my purposes, except when the appointment was confirmed.

Apparently the voicemail I was shuffled to, once I reached the orthopedic group, did evoke a response.  Albeit at 4:47 P.M.

These experiences tell me I am going to be a really bad ward of the state.  No patience for it.  And as I age a bit my frontal lobes seem to atrophy==no filter.  They annoy past a point, I either walk out or ask something inappropriate and insulting.   I try not to do this.

It seems that ever since my mortality was brought to my attention, I tend to behave as if I am immortal.  Isn't that puzzling?  I guess it is a "what do you have to lose?" proposition.

Played a great night with my Texas people on Firday.  Valor and Lace, that's us.   Played until 2.  Someone trying to book us the weekend they leave.  We may do it.  He pulled out hundred dollar bills the other night to buy more time.  The barkeep didn't stop it.  We made double what we would have made.  And we eventually got a second wind.  I did.

They are really trying to get me to consider moving to the Austin area.   I told them my needs---some way to make money, and cheap but good lodging.  I do not think we have heard the end of it.  They are even saying I can stay with them.  I don't want to kill the friendship.

Besides, people have no idea how often and for how long I may be dry heaving loudly or something.  Expecting to improve it, but not looking for company that close to me.  At the same time, I need to push just beyond what I feel is comfortable.  That is because almost anyone can do a little better.  Me especially, even if I don't believe it.  Reality.

Now, the bone fella may just send me home with a wrapped hand or something.  Or of the scaphoid is in pieces, they probably have to screw it together.  You'd think they'd have a super glue type of material and just set and stick.  No foreign object. Nothing to take out later.  The trick is do not miss the correct alignment.  This is a tiny bone, relatively speaking.

It still sucks that about the best thing anyone will ever think I have done or can do is play harmonica. I have become much much better, by my measure of things, than I used to be.  Nothing compared to the real deal players, but good as a sideman.

But that is in no way the best of what I should be doing. It is all that's left so we cling to it.  Left handed, so as not to damage the right one further.  Anyway global warming will work the opposite for Texas in the future?  Heat is not my best friend at the moment.  Guess I better learn to adapt.

It Is A Stage Play, Sorry

Maybe the man was right about the whole life experience being a play blablabla...tale told by an idiot, yadayadayada.

I only know so much of the quote, and I am too lazy to try to remember and write down all of it I do know.  I know the main thrust of the assertion.

But this political thing is pure theater and a great deal of half truth, no truth, deception and trickery.  Latest one is Hillary and now she's all forthcoming.  I think her organization is lying concerning her health.  Not that it matters unless she has something highly contagious or a condition that makes her mentally unfit. 

On second thought, I don't think being mentally unfit is a deal killer for the presidency, so scratch that idea.

Anyway.  Her camp is spinning like crazy.  Rumpelstiltskin all up in there, trying to spin gold from straw.  They may do it.  The rabidly faithful buy the spin.  Can't a girl get a day off?  All that stuff.  

As if it is only because this candidate is a woman that we find face diving during an early exit from an event interesting and worth some investigation.  If Trump could not stop coughing and had to be carried into his limo,  as he was free falling straight forward, unable to even use his arms to break his own fall, no one would have noticed.

She should use it to her advantage.  The next time she is at a rally and starts feeling like she's losing it, stage dive into the crowd and ride of the sea of people holding you up and transporting you all over the room.  Strategically place secret service personnel so that they can steer where the crowd sends Hillary.  

I've been having that same coughing thing, sort of, so I sympathize with Hillary on that.  

Why would anyone run for president?  Oh, that's right, the company airplane is the most pimped out company vehicle in the world.  And it comes with the job.   They could fit it with a really rad slide/ramp for Hillary. No daunting steps or nose dive worries.

Trump already has a plane, but it is not the same.   I wonder if he will resent that the plane at the job is better than his company's plane. Will he try to one up White House?   He'll already be used to the flying on demand part so that should be easy.  

It is a crazy world.   People in this country just will not get it through their heads that this is not a monarchy.  In any form.  Take that however.  That pretty much sums up a lot concerning this election.

I get why Hillary runs; she has been drinking from the public trough forever, like so many others, telling those who fill it that she's "fighting for them".  They all say that; "fighting for you!"  because you, apparently, are too dimwitted to fight for yourself, or even know you need to fight at all.

Professional politicians are just very high paid, powerful carnival barkers.  Total sham.  But people sucker for it.  Because they are greedy.  Really, "the little guy" is greedy and stupid, and emotionally insecure enough to jump at any chance to play victim.  I think I may hate "the little guy".  Their stupidity and predictable greed for the crumbs offered by the con artist politicians are why things are better, less crime ridden, and even more affordable than they are today.

Due to a family swimming in the blue koolaid, I will not state my intentions as far as voting.  And I won't argue it.  It is like geographical phenomena, climate change and such.  We may agree that things do change, but I amy not agree that legislation and a hatred for industry is the way to confront it.  They think government is responsible for all.  And they think it makes sense.  I think government has caused us to not be as advanced as we could be, especially in the fields of energy and transportation.

Koolaid drinkers believe curbing the standard of living is the way to all good things.

They are so wrong.  The climate hysteria is just a ruse so that even more deeply entrenched cronyism can have its way.  They subsidize their pet companies like Solyndra and such, pretending that government knows all possible alternatives, and that it is up to them to throw money at those they consider worthy.   Wide open for cronyism.  What if I just want to produce but do not want government involved?   Too bad.  They won't allow it without much red tape and nonsense.

And the blue koolaid people think that is the intelligent approach.

I am not trusting the red koolaid people, either.   However they are less given to wild eyed racism and misandry.  And complete irrational hatred of any human endeavor that is useful or just amazing--like jet airplanes, SUVs, etc.   Red Koolaid people tend to not express hatred for their own species to the same degree as the blue koolaid folks.

All the time you hear progressives act like they are ashamed to be American, ashamed to be white (other races OK), just ashamed that mankind has done such incredible things like go to the moon, invent glass, make cars that are highly dependable, create climate controlled dwellings, etc.  If people like it, or it really celebrates the genius and imagination of humans, they hate it.  "What about the blablabla worm, or moth or.... puke"

One thing is almost certain, I will not vote for Hillary, and most likely will never vote for a democrat again.  They are the same people who almost convinced me I was no good and not smart enough growing up.  Turns out they were only half right.  I am smart enough, but I hate the collectivist blinders with which they view life and those under their power.

And the republicans needs to purge their party of the McConnells and the like.  He is a Harry Reid clone.  Crooked, and worthless.

Imaginary Victims Keep Coming Like The Un-Dead

After Colin Crackerjack's ill advised antics, now every other unoriginal nincompoop in sports wants to make some look-at-me drama prior to the game.  Seriously, it is idiotic.  I understand the spin from those who are already misanthropes and hate their country; often just hate, and call it righteous anger over blablabla.  Bitch-aholics.  And victims.  When you are a victim, you become special.

So every fool in front of a crowd wants in on the action.  Who wants to be an aggrieved victim?  I do, I do!!!  Just negotiated my gazillion dollar contract, and now I fight for the poor unwashed.  wherever they may be. I, too, am oppressed!

New victims every minute!!  They won't rest until they eat you up!

To say that you will do whatever until the flag stands for what it should is a foolish statement.  What the flag stands for does not change.  How people live up to it does.  This is where people diverge in viewpoints.  Some never get that there are Ideals, Values held in esteem.  That is not to say all live up to those ideals or values.

Minority violence is the modern day problem most pressing in the world of "of color", not outside racism.   There is growing backlash to all the alleged racism and unequal prosecution of hate crimes.  But hate crimes legislation is there just so various groups can become more special than others as they see fit.   Violent crime is not a loving thing.  If you harm or kill an innocent person then you committed a hate crime.  I don't care if you did it for racial reasons or homowhatnot, etc.

It is a real crime  (and I think tons of victims result) for those kneeling fools, news wanks, political people, community opportunists like Jesse, Al, etc. to pretend that the violence is white racism.  True stats are ignored regarding who is most likely to shoot whom, and the real breakdown on crime numbers.

The racial divide will likely always somewhat exist, but this approach our society has taken the last many years is making it worse.  Avoiding truth is criminal.  At this point you have to realize it is not working out.  It is not healthy for big blocks of the population to have no father around, to regularly shoot one another and whoever else stumbles into the 'hood.  Trying to compensate for problems by demeaning people and treating them like troubled children may have helped Al and Jesse rise in the extortion over race biz, but it has not improved the overall redneck inner city mentality.  Ignorance is king, and victimhood is queen.  And every idiot guilty white racist fuels the process.

And insanity like 3 strikes laws do nothing to help.  Geez, I get it, but do people not see the danger in that sort of draconian foolishness?  For one thing, if you have such a dumb law then be real stingy on which offenses to which you assign the felony title.

Sometimes I feel stuck between the world of crazy progressives and fools like Colin, and gung ho, old west style mob nonsense like those who want to exile anyone not saying pledge of allegiance--again look up the history of that very questionable oath to the state.

The guilty white racist is a rabid liberal who jumps at chances to ridicule and spew hate at their own kind---as if they are somehow now of no race, but in a position of superiority to all.   It is all a cover because of their secret feelings of superiority and true lack of respect for those not like them.  But they fear the other and like their votes and being able to manipulate the bloc.

Just in the last day or two, mass shooting in Birmingham.  Black on black, apparently, so the breathless outrage and cries of "We have to do SOMETHING!!  Anything!!  As long as it involves ridiculous legislation and further punishment of the decent and innocent." need not be heard.   Let's wait for the less frequent occasion when a cracker is involved.  Then it can be about race!!

Fortunately over time, more and more "people of color"--geez that is so bizarre--are breaking away from the routine the exploiters try to perpetuate--inner city and ignorance status quo.  They are doing well and as wary of drifting into the wrong neighborhood as their colorless countrymen.  And women, if you are too nuts to comprehend universal terms.

The flag is one thing that actually does have some principle behind it.  Still, one must be careful with zealous jingoism, too.  There is a sane and true path I hope.

Anyway, the Seattle team did the smart thing.  Get the national anthem out of the way prior to letting the nincompoop athletes out of their cage.   Problem solved.

These self promoting martyrs are such drama queens.  And so ignorant.  And in the case of NFL players, so oppressed and deprived.

So the point is, who cares what you do?  But do not lie.  You are clueless and pretending you are a deep thinker when you do not get the difference between symbols and reality, and constant universal values is a joke.  You are like a Jr. High kid with a leading role in the class play.  And it went to your head.  Now you think you are a spiritual leader of a great movement.

By the way NFL, hands up, don't shoot never happened.  I hate lack of truth.  If you have a point, you shouldn't make up stuff thinking that will send it home. It backfires.  Except among the studiously ignorant.

Clothes Make A Big Difference

This past Saturday we played Crest Community Center.  That is with the all originals band Enter the Blue Sky.  Actually it is all the singer's material.  She made it clear from the start that she was not going to dilute the effort any time soon.  

She has since let me know she's open if I came up with something.  I haven't done anything.  Valor and Lace also is open.  They have actually taunted me to write something or bring out something already written.  But after next Friday I won't see them until Christmas.  They will come back on three or four major holidays so the kids can visit bio dad.

And here I was gearing up to roadtrip Austin for the holidays if I could.  It may be hard to get away from work this time.  I have to work fast to start making more money and achieving more freedom.  This is getting old--being tethered to a job with floating hours which are doubly hard to predict because the manager doesn't bother to let people know.

My co-workers, Nikki and Jeanine and I take turns texting with basic questions that he should already have answered.  So unbelievably myopic and clueless.  Kind of a nice guy, but the sort who would dump the body, or dig the shallow grave if the boss asked.  There is an edge hidden in there.

I think having to be subordinate to a nincompoop in this situation amplifies my clear tendency to underachieve.  Maybe those days will end.

As much as I have played with bands and such and I always felt inferior in a way.  Not legitimate.  Even though I knew I had better sense than the rest of the group regarding sound balance and level.   Especially volume level.   Even Enter Blue Sky resisted at the Italian place when I insisted on do their sound check, and setting myself last because I had more control of my level.  And I am who I am.  smiley face

OK so a fiddle player I had not seen for months was their Saturday playing with the group that was alternating sets with us.  He noticed the difference.  I have become more aggressive, which is to say I am probably just at the right level.  I err toward quiet.  No apology for that.  But I am not inwardly so apologetic in the musician sense any more.  Our CD will soon be pressed.

On this material I have to say that was close to as well as I could do.  Definitely at that point in time.

OK. To the point.  I did not wear jeans this time.  I stopped short of a tie or sport jacket. Don't have the jacket and this is socal, too hot.  Anyway.

The difference in how everyone treated me, and how I behaved as a result was significant and profound.  Really.  I was treated with real respect and I think I behaved in a more deserving manner.  Truth is, though I have worn blue jeans almost exclusively for years, I am more comfortable in casual whatever slacks and cotton button down shirts.  Business casual?  1957 retro couture.

Truth is, I am white collar at heart, even though I blue collar it,  or whatever it is that does their dirty work collar it most of the time.  Not sure the collar beyond white in which you just do stuff and people pay you but you aren't any but your own employee.

Stunning result.  I will begin the process of taking advantage of this intelligence.   I am not one who expects to attract much just by inner goodness and brilliance.  If dressing like a grown up does the trick, then so be it!

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